Happy Everyday

coinsident..

2007-10-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

2005.05.07~~~2006.01.24 ~~~ 2006.10.13 --->>> 2007.10.13

unforgetable days in my life....

I won't see back anymore... planning to start a new blogger~~~

looking forward!!! and always happy being with HongYu...

i am back

2007-09-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

I came back Singapore yesterday... 17days in my hometown with my family, it was memorable and happy...

In these holidays I have chatted with my father for third times, involved what i am going to do after graduate, how's my personaly issue....etc.... besides all, i heard and felt much much more from brother and friends there... only can say, the way of our thinking is different, they don't understand my feeling or thought, i also hard to put myself in their shoes...

Next week our school will reopen, the last semester in rp, 4 more months to go, even hong yu will beside me, but I still fear to make the decision between father's carrer and hongyu¬!! it is really hard to me...

Unpredictedly, he qq to me last night, he asked me when i would come back... I want to tell hong yu, maybe one day, hongyu, li and me, three of us can have a dinner or go for short travel together... but it is only a dream, not only hongyu won't be accepted, li also will reject me...

whatever... please make sure don't hurt anyone of us....

unpredictable

2007-08-23T14:16:00.000+08:00

Today is the last school day of Year 3 semester 1. Now is the presentation time, nothing much to do, so I just traveled through website, reading and listening the music...

suddenly... he talked to me by msn. but he showed that he is appear offline... he is li chengyuan...

never thought of he would chatted with me since i had uploaded some photos between me and hong yu in my space, and used one of them as my display picture....

when i asked him what he wants to eat, i can bring them back from China. his answer is DENG LING... Maybe this special food only for us... because it was not a real food, only both of us knew the meaning..even i did not remember clearly what exactly it is... HAIZ.. maybe understood what he wanna say to me.. maybe i overthink...

it is happy and unpredictably, he talk to me first... in chinese we can say, ta yue guo le zhe ge jie xian, er wo mei you....

"fire work"

2007-08-17T15:16:00.000+08:00

There is an article which i have started to write last Feb. I was planning to finish it by December of 2006, whatever till now, only half be done. The momeries about me and li chengyuan is the mean objective of this special article. i used third person tone to describe. It is always kept under my documents, wang jing folder in laptop, no one besides me knew it... However, today's lunch time, unfortunately, hongyu saw it, because the name is ( stroies between he and she)... he asked me to explain, and reason for keeping this ... I don't know how to answer it, because it is true, i never thought of to delete it, or store it by thumb drive or hard disc,... but i am sure one thing, i never felt moody by reading this article since this year began... i did agree that last year, i was live in those momeries and always looked backward... however it is overed...

in the end, hongyu forgave me and he told me that he really felt sad when the moment he saw it.. he doesnot mind i recall momeries, but don't let him know is fine to him...

hong yu is a good guy to being with... 19th of August, two months.. in the day also is 77.... =)

recent us

2007-08-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

long time never edited my blog~~~~

yesterday i completed my pp. today i plan to finish my FYP report and ppt as well... but till now, 1pm plus, i am no mood to do it... play games also not fun, listen music is not what i want.... just want to look at sky and think~~~ however there is nothing in my mind~~~~~~~~~

me, as usual, go school, back to home, eveving exercises....

him, schooling, fyp and part-time work~~~

all my friends are doing their individual staff... be happy and enjoy too.

this morning, i was wake up by hungry... therefore around 10am, i went to bed again.. i made a day-dream... in my dream, jiang yuan was back from China, and he brought me to Haidi's house, we chatted, but from Haidi's eyes, i see the evil and he strongly dislike me.... i was worrying because i know he will read my msn space and saw the photos... which i took with hong yu~~~!!! it is the most worst thing~~~ i was wake up again by shock!!!! maybe it is caused me feel moody to do anything~~~~~~~~`

coming August holiday i will back to Lanzhou, what will my future, and after i graduate, where i should go or stay... many many unknown will be confirmed by this time. .. haiz..

haiz....haiz...haiz...

2007-07-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

................... due to there are too many photos, so i won't upload....show u guys when i meet u ~~

the worst DSP UT i have done

2007-07-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Today, the first day of my brother back to China, today, our CAE student had the DSP UT3, the worst one i have never done before~~~!!

really moody and upset~~~ he is busy for doing FYP, and i can not asked him always beside and accompany me.. therefore after UT, I was directly going home, but when i was one the way to woodlands mrt station, i have received a call from Pan ping, he and me sat in mca and chatting for next few hours, the recent news and future planning.... really feel free and can shared anything we had...

haiz... even though, still disappointed~~~~

one month after, i will back to Lan zhou, and in that time, i will introduce him to my parents and ask him to come over during my Decemeber holiday... some more i will tell my father whatever i am planing and thinking for my future, especially after graduate~!!!

well, i will going to upload some photos which we have took in KL and Genting with my brother and him....

my brother with me now

2007-07-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

haha..

just created a blogger for wang qiang ,he can write any poems he wants... so the blogger name is link to this...

He grows up more and maybe will start to fall in love ... happy and shocked ~~~!!

last Weekend, ren hong yu and me brought my brother to go to KL and Geeting for short trip, sweety all the way, and feel happiness and satisfy!!! *_*

today is 19th of July, one month being together with him~~~ haha.. brother will be here and celebrate together...

oh, forgot to say, he gave me a diamond ring as a gift !!

welcome~~~

2007-07-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

wow... wah....

my brother will come on coming Monday.... so happy and looking forward...
*_*

sleepy

2007-07-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

wah...
One day only has 24 hours, today i was spending almost 12 hours on sleeping.... 2 hours for evening jogging and exercises... the remain time, i used to watching tv series ( han wu da di)...

quite relaxed... and good mood in me...

before meal, huan huan asked me that he wanted to try my Clarinet, suddenly realized that it was 10 Years AGO i was first time to touch it and be a learner... even 10 years after, i am still a beginner... no any talents for music...even my father has always encouraged and supported, to select the best teacher to me.... however i don't really interested in it and almsot forgot there is music equipment in my hand...

haiz....

yesterday li chengyuan organized 3 vs 3 RP Chinese student basketball competition... I was planning to go when he informed me few weeks ago, but till yesterday afternoon, i changed my mind.hehe....

looking forward my brother come SG and waiting the good news from him... bless you ~~~~~~~~~~~~

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2007-06-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

Now is 1.30am on 28th of June. 2007... nothing in my mind, not happy not so sad... even i just answered the phone call from hongyu...

haiz.....

I saw your nickname....... is it to me? at least i believe so...

I received the message you left on qq, some more feel nothing on it....

haiz....................

dear sister and brother

2007-06-22T08:47:00.000+08:00

Dear Sister...
I was too shocked when i read your June first blog... maybe it is just a way to express yourself and recent feelings.... happy to having you in singapore, always besides me especially when i in badtimes... we shared our unhappiness and sadness all the way... some day, i was thinking that if there is one day, you leave singapore and go other country to study, what will happend on us... and what will be our future look like.??etc.. whatever when and where we are and even you are not my blood sister... I will still be there when you need somone to listen to yours....... all the best to your own mission and planning, and wish you have a wonderful and meaning future life....

Dear Brother:
I have learning a lot of from you, even both of us never said that we are brother and sister.. i am always treat as brother more than closed friend.. i don't mind and very glad to tell whatever things happend to me and listen to your advices.by your way.. you gave a good sample of being a
filial child and a good students... the responsibities and duites of each... you have your knowledge in your mind, take a good care of your health and achieve your goal ~~~~

To me...

i will work on my mission !!!! support me always...

haha.. =)

don't let me be the stupid girl...

2007-06-20T02:07:00.000+08:00

hope it is not you ~~~~~

wish you are not that one ~~~~~~~

expect you never done ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

if the truth is point on you ...sorry.... i won't accept and forgive you and we two never be friends anymore... in my whole life....

looking forward to welcome brother come

2007-06-18T18:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha.... finially after long time preparation, my brother finished his exam this morning... waiting for the good news from him....

just i have called him, we are planning when he will come to Singapore etc everything... if his passport still can be used this time, roughly next friday he already be here with me...haha.. so happy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today school reopened, happy to study and keeping on hard working ... jia you ...

nothing much want to write...

tomorrow zong zi jie , remember to eat some ....

happy Father's Day

2007-06-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

17th of June is Father's Day...

best wishes to every father in this world... especially to my father...hoho...

upload some photos which I took with him in his office when i was in Lanzhou last March...

Ocean's 13

2007-06-13T02:18:00.000+08:00

cool ~~~~~~~~~~~ man !@!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. even i never watched Ocean's 11 and 12, I still enjoy the show..

Yan xin and chee yuen with me... haha. happy ~~~~~~~~

Holiday is half passed, really espect school reopen and the busy life I have...

qiang, my dear brother will take exam on coming Sat, Sun and Mon, all the best to him and looking forward he come Singapore to visit me~~~~~

Sok feng messaged me this afternoon, she asked me to take lots of care and see me when school reopen... some how i am touched by this, a good girl in my life... btw~~!!

don't let me be the last to know

2007-06-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

Jiang Yuan has contacted me last night, we had a almost one hour phone conversation... I have prepared quite long to this, but in the end, I was getting a shock... he never and ever mentioned why he left lanzhou, even I know the exact reason, but in front of him, i acted as I did know nothing... the questions i asked about his working and what he is doing by now, and what the planning ...etc... all of these what i wanna know, he just told me that" if one day, your capacity is higher than me, or maybe after you graduate, I will let u know... Now i am like a farmer, seed many, but which one grow up first, i don't know, it is not under my control, how can I tell you...?" what the hell !!! haiz...what i can said .... just laughed ... He still has not said broke up, I am thinking to say that first.. maybe on Saturday evening, aunty is not at home, I can call him again to break up this relationship...make me feel so stress and uncomfortable, no any happiness in it... just left " suffering...." haiz...

To what i have understood about him... he would know what the meaning behind if he left lanzhou... we surely must sepearted.....!!!!

take it easy.. don't think too much, let's go peacefully and less hurts~~~~

first time....

2007-06-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Today I went to bugis temple to lucky pick-up( qiu qian), the question i asked is about the continuration of relationship between me and Jiang Yuan...

In the past one week, nothing happend within us, no message, no phone call, peaseful passed... we also never said broke up our relationship before he left lanzhou... I don't know what he is planning or doing right now? and i also unsure of what the purpose he chose me to be his girlfriend, maybe becuase he really likes or loves me...but most probably caused by my family, my background, my money... just like what the TV Series show... haiz...

BUT!!!! I finially relized one important thing !!! when i was a small girl, my vision and mission is about my father... how to be his standard or smart girl, how to show out in front of my father's friend... everything i did , just wanna let my father proud of ... of course it is also our duty as the child of parents.. but never and ever i thought of my own planning or goal~~~

before I had dinner with yan xin jie and others tonight, i was sitting near there and wacthing the sky... listenning the music and deeply thinking and planning!!!! FIRST TIME i found what I will do and plan to in next few years!!!

1. whatever reason, i won's say broken up with him.. just maintain this relationship by this way... like the slient way... becuase i was afraid of he will retaliate my family in the future... let me say, if he really likes me.. i am his hope and confidences to everything.... so base on these two... unless he say so, i will broke with him.. of course i won'be sad... it is double confirm thing!!!

2, I will go further study... acutually i have studing French started from this semester..I gave up Japanese, because for future use, French is much useful than Japanese, somehow i heard from father, he wanna develop Jin Feng Xiang in one day to be a real global company.... and my brother also like French language, in the earlier future, maybe when he is high school grade 2, he will go oversea study... still unknown.. but what i planning is to go third country to study, and be more mature , to open my mind, to truely enrich my knowledge!!! and some way, i can accompany with my brother in the first few years, if everything goes well... and under my control!~~

3, by right now... I will hard working on my fyp and school study... firstly pass PP!!! I strongly believe i can do it if i really wanna do something!~~!!...

be more brave, more independant, be more stronger!!!!

holiday is coming~~

2007-06-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

Finially our two weeks short holiday is coming... can relax and sleep more... on the other hand, of course must spend time more effectively, to study English, FF, and proceed doing my FYP...

right now,At this moment, i am not so sure what the feeling i have, no sadness, no happiness, just peaceful let the time passing by, stay at home alone, cook and after jogging by myself... don't wanna talk, just wanna listen to music and watch online show, if tired just go sleep... so natural...

haiz....... be honest.... it is hard to forget the memories we had... even it is fastest and shortest....... only can say all the best to you .... recommend one song by xin yue tuan <> , the lyrics is so suitable for us...

all gone and all over

2007-05-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

OVER~~~~~~
easy come and easy go~~ it is true, i won't hurt my family, i won't against my father in front of anything~!!!no matter who besides me and who I love.
Jiang Yuan lost everything, include the confidences, trust and his past history... what i can say right now... I believe my father... i feel relax when he left lan zhou this afternoon, i must be brave, strong and independendant~~!!!!

To me, i don't really sad, compare with li chengyuan.

in these few days, suddenly i wanna to go oversea to further study~~~~ to enrich my mind, to learn more knowledge... however, i need talk to my father... balance all, i prefer working for few years first, than go study again... in the mean time, father heard from aunty, and asked me to practise more ENGLISH... i will work on it...

started from this semester, i concentrate on more my school study, i proof that i can do a good job if i really wanna do it... last year, due to some stupdi things, i keep saying i did not like SEG, etc..but right now, i found some interests in it and enjoy it...even some of the day i really feel bored and lazy, overall, i will keep it up..haha... ( just like today, data communication module, my lovely faci go to Army reservice, haiz.. and i missed my first meeting, because wake up at 8.15am~~~!!!!) haiz..

holiday is coming soon, let's me enjoy it and all the best to FYP~~!!!

grow up...

2007-05-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

从小就在爸爸的手心里长大，没有经历过太大的风浪，没有尝试过真正的失败与成功的滋味，只是活在那样一个小小的范围里，自我满足，自我陶醉。虽然嘴上总说“我希望快点毕业，快点投入一切工作中，去体验更多的社会经验，去品味人生的酸甜苦辣。”，但那些毕竟还属于自己的想象中。。。也许是自己又在庸人自扰，也许是真的体会到什么是“长大”~！！

在家里人的眼里，在很多朋友心中，我都是一个长不大，不懂事，成天还像小孩子一样的大孩子，其实我自己也一直是这样，想要过成熟，想要过稳重，冷静，只是我还是在那个跑道上漫步。。。哎！！！这一段时间，老姜变得好忙，准备报告，还要操心他妈妈的手术，连续几天都没有好好睡觉，和他通电话，听得出，他好累，那一瞬间，好希望能在他的身边，也许他也希望我能在他的身边，而不是这种远距离的电话，好远又感觉好近！~~不停的告诉自己，同心锁让我们紧紧相连~~哎。。。从他的身上，莫名其妙的感觉出，人一旦长大了，一旦担负起了一个家庭给予的责任，他就不单单是一个人，而是一个代表着每个人的浓缩体。他要处理，要解决的不仅仅是家里的大小事情，同样还有自己的工作，自己的使命。这也让我更加的理解了爸爸，从小只是知道，要刻苦努力学习，要拿到好的成绩去回报爸爸，但是真正的理解他，直到此刻，才有了一丝丝的了解。爸爸的伟大，爸爸的辛苦，我开始懂了~~~~ 可是另一面，我现在还是个学生，我能做些什么，对于爸爸，除了继续维持自己的“刻苦学习，”好像没有什么特别的~~~！！！这也其实就是爸爸要求和期望的，当然还有“思考”！！！！！！对于老姜呢，他希望我可以把自己照顾好，学会去认真地对待事情，慢慢开始成熟，包括我无意的，善意的一些谎言。。。心里还是在告诉自己，平静的继续走下去。。只是，我好希望2007年，这一年快点过去！！！好期盼能在爸爸的身边，帮助他，从他身上学习做人，做事。。。好期待，可以待在老姜身边，去学习那种认真，那种成熟, 当然还有陪伴他~~~~ 适当的时候可以照顾到他的家人！！！就如同此刻，我在假想，如果我在南京，老姜就不会那么累，弄得自己恨不得有分身术去挂念做手术的妈妈，还要整理准备自己的工作报告！！！哎~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

冷静一点，去做好自己能做好的，就是把最后一年的学生角色做到最好。。。这就是自己2007年唯一能做的事情，唯独爸爸和他希望的事情！！！

angry ? for what?

2007-05-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

happend on 15th of May 2007 11.30pm

"just arrived to Beijing just now" -- his message
"good hear from you"--my first reply
"happy, miss me? can call me?"-- his message
"wah.. if i call you, will charge oversea fee, ur bill will be very high..."-- my second reply
"who cared?"-- his message
"ok, wah... lao jiang changed, become so generous..."--my third reply...

around 20minutes after i called to him.. just chatted few words.. he told me" not enough money in handphone credit card..call me tomorrow night by his house number..."
well, what i could say... "used to it and take care"!!

the feeling was so complex and look down him in some way...haiz...

happy for all of us..

2007-05-13T12:55:00.001+08:00

Did I speak too fast ? never noticed and felt that... haha....
shopping with yanxin jie yesterday...

Just read her blogger... from what i saw and felt from yesterday, she is quite enjoy her life right now... fulfilled everday... good and please keep it up... Maybe i know the reason why she treated me to have dinner... not that important to know the exactly why she did so...

My father allowed me to go oversea travel, i chose Korean or Japan... qi dai ~!!!!

in the end... around 11pm plus, li cheng yuan messaged me... he asked me how to go Chinese Garden Swimming Pool... the place we had been to ..... xixi heihei.. don't know...

happy for all of us..

2007-05-13T12:55:00.000+08:00

Mum...I LOVE YOU ~~~

2007-05-13T12:04:00.000+08:00

haha....

left up is my mum and me when i was 100days in this world...

right up is my brother and mum when he is 100days....

the last one is me and brother.. the photo took on 8th of Dec.2006, my grandpa birthday.. we grow up and taking care each other and love our father and mum forever~~~thanks~~!!!

my god~~~

2007-05-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

Since the end of March till now, quite long time i could not logic into my this blogger address.. long time never editted it... wahwah. right now my class is running the third meeting... haha..

Few thing has happening during this period of time:
1. Jiang Yuan and me are gathered. He has back to China on 18th of Apr. 2007. He is in DUBAI now... never called up or sent a single message to me or his mum..haiz... stupid guy~~ let's us worry so much!!!

2, I become a sporty girl..everday night i will go for jogging ... play basketball and some other extra sports... feel good and relax... of course can lose weight.~~

3, yanxin jie started work already one week, best wishes to her.. please ignore and take it easy to whatever you were suffering in the past time, looking forward and someone is there to await you..

4, study hard in a way, and hopeful i can keep my learning XXXX interests as long as possible...

TIME is running so fast, 7th of May in 2005, lichengyuan and me were gathered.. in these two years time, much things has been changing between him and me.. even we can fell free to chat online or sit together to have lunch .. but no more LOVE just remain the original friendship. That's enough~~~~

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class is so bored to die.. this module~~~ especially this problem ... data communication problem 4~~~!!!!!!

by the way, i am planning to go Thailand alone with the tour group...

haha...

2007-03-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

we are being together on 18th of Mar.2007....

His name is JY... haha... hopeful we will happy to be gathered... No matter where we are~~~

He is older than me for 5 years, we are quite suitable in the date of birth and our fade~~~

haha...

To me, i must grow up to learn how to fall in love with people and being loved... good luck ~~~

don't know......

2007-03-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

I'm confused...
I don't know what we are thinking and planning...
maybe we will say clearly tomorrow... maybe It will last till one day... which day i am not sure.. so does he...
I hope you can do a good job for our JFX and in front of my father...

I START TO MAKE A SWEET DREAM FOR US...

a mi tuo fo...

2007-03-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

I think he is coming toward to me... and finially he appears... who I was waiting~~~

hope so ~~~

my future loving life

2007-03-17T18:32:00.000+08:00

Li chengyuan always to be the famous person in my blog... whenever we were together or sepearted... He is the first boyfriend to me... the meaning will not forget... Recently my auty busy for preparing everything for my brother's widding... my brother is the second children in our big family, I was come after him... which means at least I got someone to be with me now or in a short future time... My father still does not allow to find boyfriend before I graduate, my mum is totally different, she said and presuaded to me to find one, otherwise the good guy will belong to other girl... haha... she always asked me to learn cooking before i really get married... I felt funny and told everything to my brother who is going to get married soon in coming April... why the marriage is so important to human and especially for girls... He was saying that due to my family background, my father and my bad temple personalities... It is really hard to find one can fit into me... I was laughing all the way... haiz... However it is true where is my future loving life... maybe it is not time... maybe I will alone forever... haha...

haiz...

2007-03-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

So sudden... never expected to receive message from wang bao jun again since EEP... I have put him into my black name list long time already...the message was touching... but i really felt nothing on it... what i can do.. just follow my heart...

Sok feng helped me register a new mail address, then i can still used this to write my secret...haha.. staying at home for one month... everyday do the same thing... but happy to be with my family...

how are you YOKO.... the day you left a message on QQ, i was shocked and excited to see... hope you are fine there...

sigh...

2007-01-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

Few more days I will fly back to Lan Zhou. Follow by my father , Uncle Peng and me will go Dubai to a exhibition. Enjoy my long vacation in my travel and China...

Before I wrote this new blog, I have called back to qiang, started to worry him again, and confused what he wants and needs... who can tell me... the most important thing i must do during the holiday is that to persuade my father, allow qiang come and stay with me... some more also about myself~~~ hope so... give best wishes to me~~ :(

Staying at home for whole day, revise UT , eating , watching movies~~~ happy to stay here alone...

WHY ?

2007-01-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I have been to Palau Ubin with Xiaotong and few friends... initially I thought i will be in mood when i was there, but in the end, i am not that happy than what i expected.. just very natural to let it go from me...

124 was a sensitive day in my heart.. but till now.. much better than before, and i told myself won't be do such fool things again ~~ day by day, after one first love i will be more mature and knowing much well how to love people... maybe he was a "victim" in this " WAR"... Even i also suffered a lot...

Less than 2 weeks, all year 3 friends will graduate, surely will miss, and scared to imgine what changes after they go off.. haiz...

My lovely BWS still here, wei jia and panping also no change, only XJY left "J " in RP... and in our life... some more i used to go canteen with them in the first break out, and have dinner together around 4pm... haiz...

take it easy bar...

I heard from fangfang, he is lack of money, therefore He won't back Haerbin during the Chinese New year, Last year he skiped lessons for Celebrate new year at own house, but how can be this time ??? sigh.. he has been changed a lot due to ....(no much idea)... hopeful he will be fine... just a friends regards....

HEY , remember me... a talkative , emotional and ........restive girl...

124 is going to END

2007-01-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

END!!!

ENDING~~~

HOHO ... FINIALLY END.... TRUE ~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

124 day is coming in few days~~~

2007-01-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

124day is coming in these few days...
one year of Broke off... just wanna to remind me, it is time to find another you ~~~

Last week, i was worrying to select the FYP team members and FYP project..... experienced a lot...

haiz...

No much things happened... so no much more things can share here..haha...

haiz..

2007-01-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

My IT is like zero...
IQ do not know yet

EQ maybe a bit higher for above both...

Formatted my "lovely compaq" laptop for fine times after today.. felt tired for this S... laptop..haiz..

Yesterday I made a dreams about JY.... HAHA..only can say this...

Sahan... one of my classmates, quite stranger guy , give me a lot of his histories talking and asked me many stories about me ...

haiz...

haha...

2007-01-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

"xian zai ta zao jiu bu shi xi yin li le, er cheng le gong hai~~ " i understood in my own way~~!!

I passed the gift to him face to face...

only wanna say this at here...

going to reach one year

2007-01-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

Time was passing quickly, like flying pass by...

2005 is the most happiness year in my life, i have experienced that to be loved by someone and I know what's meaning of fall in love... of course, 2005 i entered poly to study in...

2006, I was suffering for lose him, sad and scare to love someone again... did a 4 months part-time job and few school event... made many friends around me...

2007, a new begining, and going to year 3, one more year to graduate, study harder and to achieve anything I plan to... be grow up and mature in certain way...

Today is bao jun's birthday, I have sent a message by using weijia's phone, just told him that " happy birthday, is me..." "thanks" is what he replied to me... maybe he would know the message is from me... don't know why I did this stupid thing again, maybe still treat him as a friends, even he hurt me, maybe is our chinese say" qing mian.." haiz... I have passed the lichengyuan's gift to weijia, asked her to give him, really hope he will like and wear on it... haha...

haiz... hoho...

i am ready to do ..

2007-01-07T01:01:00.003+08:00

wah..wah...

I Think i am get ready to do...
2007 is a new year , new begining... firstly i must show a good job to my father... and the people work in JFX... of course it is a good way to proof myself...

2007 is the last year in RP.i will try whatever things i plan or wanna do... like what i did, actually i bought a gift for him , a sliver nicklace... i think it is nice to wear on.. i told him by msn... he did not reject and felt shock to hear from me that i was prepare a present for him..haha... don't know why , i felt nothing and relax.. different from 2006..haha...

Recently i received few birthday gifts from friends.. so happiness...

well.. i don't have much more things can write it on.. so just be happy and good luck always in 2007... ganbade

i am ready to do ..

2007-01-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

i am ready to do ..

2007-01-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

2007

2007-01-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

2007 just came to everyone's life...New begining, new life and try to be a new man .... haha...

2006over... in the whole year.. i was suffering a lot affection between me and him... But since 2007 came, everything passes... and belongs to my history... No extra thinking , no more expections... just wishes everybody in my life will be happy and good luck....

I just come back SG this earling moring... 5weeks after will go back to CHINA again and there are few important thing wait for me to do... and i also got 2 project must be finished.... besides the school project.. all the best.... anyway, hopeful i can find a good and hardworking guys in my FYP team... wah... so fast last year in Rp... ganbade....

wah... this is the first blog in 2007...

finially...unpredictable...

2006-12-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

wah... almost 20days never wrote my blog...miss here....

last entries about I lost the phone, I have been staying at lanzhou home for almost 20days... quite bored and nothing much to do... haiz.. can not compare with singapore life...maybe i already used to Sg life.. hehe

Anything is unpredictable... I Lost my phone on tuesday, wednesday no one can not find me, then Thursday I was going back to China.. very sudden leaving .... no much people known... even i was thinking to give him a call or message... but never do that...BUT...!!! don't know who told him that i was back, he have left msn message to me, to say that happy birthday to me and enjoy holiday ..... even it was later sent.... when i saw this message, i felt good and confident, i sent a message to him about marry chrismas..he replied faster, he kept saying that he felt sorry for late said happy birthday and he remembered that my birthday is on 14th not 17th...haha... very shocked !!! whatever i am a happiness girl... 12am on 14th i received few calls from my friends.. there are chee yuen, yan xin, pan ping ,fuming and few messages...haha... very happy.... it was true...haha..thanks anyone... haha...

well.... now i am in internet room, there are much smockers around me... not very comfortable and dirty here... haiz... confinue once i back sg...

SHUAI 。。。

2006-12-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

SO BAD LUCK !!!! SIAN..YUMEN .. SHUAI ...

I wake up around 7.45, some more I don't wanna go school, but I force myself to go and took a taxi.... BUT I LOST my handphone on it.... so careless.... mama ya ..super sad and yumen...

don't know what's wrong with me, recently always BAD LUCK .. mama de..nainaide ..so angry and upset... Even they all told me that pocaimianzai... still in mood... haiz.. sian...

IF not coming school, it would be still with me...
IF not taking the taxi to school, it would besides me....
IF not wake up late, it would be there...

haiz. who can tell me what's wrong with me !!!

i have to learn more....

2006-12-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day of EEP...
Firstly I should thank for my members, the team work is quite strong among all...
Secondly, most of my friends came down to support us whatever they bought out from our pushcard...

xiao chuan, he promotes the UMBRELLA... the skills can see from his confident speak and also be very patient... in the earlier begining I was not very confrotable and used to it, but in the end, i have learned some from him...

chen ai, her voice was sweet and speak as a frequently English, by her smile, the customer felt good and satisfy with our service as well as our one of product-- NOTEBOOK..

liangjun, she likes a accountant to take care of our money, take note of what we sold out and the

price of it, she also a hardworking girl, but always serious face, maybe just in front of me...

li yuan, hoho, our preety model( i think spelling is wrong) :(, she is a good girl, and support us from true heart, wearing the high heels shoes and stood here for almost whole day..

lastly talked about myself... what i gain from today, maybe from EEP, I relized" the way you say and "act" in front of your customer... communication and sale skill... in some way, it trains our brain too...

3days left... I must think about one way to sale my PAPER CUTTING.... even we don't look how much we earn... at least I must go and try out .... and be a good experiences...

all the best, go go go dream of lakeside...( thank you for baojun, he designs the poster and signboard for us) :)

how do I DIE...

2006-11-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

Sian... wake up around 8.15am, reach school almost 9.30. first meeting ended... then i chose that not go class, skip for one digital lesson... but so bored to stay in library and do nothing... haiz.. won't be do this stupid thing again ...

later i will go houkang Japanese school, if everything goese well, i will register in that school and starts on next week..hoho... BUT I have done the basic 1 lesson...what the hell if i take again, just like retake module...

Holiday coming, do PP and working for ISC and student fiesta...

bored... bored.. right row!! so regretful !!! haiz..

Yesterday i downloaded a bit amount of music ... hoho ..like them and enjoying listening...

me...

2006-11-29T16:19:00.000+08:00

NOW I AM LOOKING THE NEO-PRINT WHICH TOOK ON 29th of Nov.2005....

qi shi mei you shen me...

Currently i like sit on the bed to read books and listen music at the same time..

hoho...

happiess girl...

2006-11-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

Wah... firstly i must tell SOKFENG, there is space for you and beelay forever, no matter what happened, don't be jealous..haha... but it shows that you truely treat me as a good friends even we are different nationality....

secondly, thanks for weijia, she came down clementi directly after working, because i was crying out and called to her... i was really worried about my face problem..( sokfeng, why you did not answer the phone)... I am touched by wei jia... thanks again...

thirdly, yanxin, my sister..haha.. gave me some advices and shared experiences...

forth, lv bin ge, panping, feel free and relax when i chatted with you two...

fifth, cheeyuen, influenced me and brother here...

haha.. not only because those people above, also my family, therefore i am a happiness girl...hoho...

everything i wrote here, same as msn space, just a english version of it...

:)

all gone...

2006-11-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

Laptop has been formatted last Saturaday midnight, my photos, journals, pictures, everything is gone, nothing in my laptop, just like a empty A4 paper... the saddest thing is the journal which i started to write when I broke off with him, the true feeling, the real self was there, but now...there is nothing left to me...

Today i skipped lesson, the reason is no VPN... haiz... after school when we had dinner at canteen, we saw him also wear the yellow color.. I did not think too much, just a bit embraess..( wrong spelling) .... haiz...

yesterday around 10pm, i and huanhuan, we went out and chatted a lot ,our life, personalities, future,parents... a lot... feel much better... even i talked with fuming in the afternoon....

just do it ....

reflection joural!!!

2006-11-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

What I was doing today? Do I satisfy with myself in the way of " acting"... maybe they are all true actions...
After did lab, I met baojun to asked him for help doing the EEP sign-board... in a short while li chengyuan came towards and saw bao jun and me sitting down there and discussing the EEP things... in the moment, I laughing at myself and asked: " why I always put myself in this kind of relationship and position to get people misunderstand the real wang jing..." maybe it is me !! my" style" ..... rubbish !!!

After UT, Baojun and me went to canteen together while yanxin, chee yuen, lichengyuan all waiting for there to have a meeting about the soccer match... just few minutes later, wang xiang looked for us about the Saturday Dinner... haiz... Don't know what i can say... haiz.... before UT, i saw li chengyuan's msn name: wo shi ru ci ai ni, que zhi neng chen mo zhan zai zui chu de di fang...." maybe i thought too much, may not be.. don't know.. just be natural...

Around 6.10pm, beside li, we all went to school library to do our things, to my view, I think he was like a bit out of point, because he never known what i am doing and what i am busy for what... he might be don't care, and none of his business... no matter what i am still be here to enjoy my busy life and try hard to do well... and learn everything i am lacking of..there are a lot of things have to study for...

Reflect myself and think about it... and improve on it... some more I really wanna to go beach to released myself.....haha...

XJY... some people already misunderstand this ...especially my purposely display...
haha...

XJY....

2006-11-15T19:16:00.000+08:00

Today is Wednesday...one day off... I slept till 10am plus then wake up. felt sick and tired. Especially my arms... no any energy to move... haha( poor English)... after had breakfast cooked by huanhuan, I went to sleep again till 2.30...haha.. then I went to Suntect city for interview by carrfore... at this moment, just back home for 15minutes...XJY suddently appeared in my mind... XJY stands for xue jia yi who is the first guy i liked in my life from Sec1 till Li chengyuan came in... But at right now, XJY has been changed with XIN, JING, YUEN.... haha... Which are all from our three name: gao yan Xin, wang Jing, tan chee Yuen...haha... XY To be the sister and brother in mylife, train and besides me always... maybe to them nothing special, but it is different in my heart...

Recently I am quite busy... besides RP study, there are few important things have to settle and do.. Student fiesta, ISC event and EEP program... lastly is the soccer match ... I came out the Timeline, shocked same time also happy for... because they will fulfill my singapore life. Anyway I delay my japanese exam date... i will take it two weeks late... haha...

2006-11-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

Middle of November.... everything goes well... I still be myself to live here... study, do project, and looking for the part-time job... somemore working for soccer match.... .... nothing has been changed in my life...

for Past week, I felt sick, in a short time, there are many things happened and must settle down!! O-level english, RP UTs , proposal... Japanese... my god... can not say I was tired... maybe the limited time is more suitable for me.... haiz.... anyway, just left few more still on the process... don't be so rush and be calm.... Everything will be ok...

I am looking forward the December come... one is my birthday is in this lovely month.. this is the first time i will celebrate my birthday not with my family and also not in Lanzhou....Well. Around Chrismas day father will come here to visit me.. surely yan xin , chee yuen will meet him.. and talk with ..haha....

I recommend aunty to watch prison break...hoho...this weekend almost time i stayed at home to do my things.. peaceful, happy and feel relaxing.... like this kind of life .... two more weeks huanhuan back to China, only left his mum and me.. just like what I said, maybe we two won't be meet each other... haha... can not imagine... whatever ....

be honestly, just wanna tell you something from my heart... I really trust you two, no matter what you said to me, i will take in serious to think about, and I will stop to do the things which you two don't agree or support... treat you as my sister and brother... don't know why i said here... haha.... thanks !

after broke off with him, there are few guys told me they like me, as a girl I am happy to be someone liked... BUT to be WANG JING, i don't think so I am proud or happy to be... felt tired to fall in love.... maybe in my heart there is space for him.. never changed... maybe I just wanna myself...... like what she told me to learn how to handle the human relationship .... erm....
...

well. stop here... Revise UTs and Japanese... good luck and all the best to my family and friends here... and lanzhou...hoho :)

fulfill my life right now...

2006-11-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

wah ... November started one week... less than 40minutes reach to 7th of Nov... the memories till there, but no expections...haha...( sian.... forgot how to spell MINUTES, because always be used Mins to represent)...haiz...

Recently I am like busy man... Meetings, Exams, UTs, Student Union soccer match... and looking for a parttime job for my coming December Holiday... wah... there are many things have not begun to do so... haiz...

Coming Wednesday is 'o'-LEVEL English Exam, be honest, I really scared... long time never used pen to write and never praticed comprehension... haiz... I plan to do a rough revision tomorrow daytime.... which means I will spon school day... haiz... a excuse give to myself again....
Hopeful I can spend time effectively... don't waste it by anything....

Last week, yan xin, Chee yuen, they two shared me for many experiences and advices... Realised that I have to learn many many things... to be grow up and mature...haiz... Yan xin pointed out a important thing from me!!! what the differences between Interests and Responsibilities, I was always confused and mix them together!!! learning from it...

One happy news is that my father will come Singapore around Chrismas Day... hopeful you guys who are my true friends can meet him and talk with ..... haha...

ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF.. TO ARRANGE TIME AND DO A GOOD JOB .... PROJECT AND STUDY!!!

self ? opportunity ? why ?

2006-10-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

Chee Yuen gave me a " speech", frankly tell me what he thinks about me about part-timer work or ISC and my personalities... Of course, he shared many advices and experiences with me... I was honestly to tell him whatever I am thinking or doing in my life.... something in heart... Yan Xin also said she want to communicate with me... just finding the time...

Liang Yun called me, even we know each other have not reached to 1 month, but I think that he understands me quite well, like my " feature" ---- zi yi wei shi !!! He told me sometimes the people besides me will be hurt by this... the worst thing is that I don't even know or realized that... haiz... it is true... and he told me one thing" nothing got meaning... and you must know what you should do not what you thinking of doing?!!" quite straight forward... but also true...

chances.. I have lost a lot .... which were can not be back... However there are more and more things to let me try, and work on... of course, I must do the changes... Just need the time... Anyway, i must think through again and plan well... personalities ==> hobby==> excuse==> fail ==> then your life will be XXXXXXX!!!

nothing without trying or overcome challenges...

opportunity???

2006-10-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

He did not reject to work with me for the coming soccer match... maybe it is a chance to us to talk after long time.... maybe it is purposely made by yan xin...whatever just a guess... in some way, i am a bit nervous, I asked few of my friends, they all gave a simple answer" be natural", but sometimes It is not easy to do so... Even I also encourage myself in this way....hehe ....

Yesterday before UT, yan xin msn me, she said" sometimes she really doesn't understand what I am thinking or doing, I just acting in other people's eyes, to be happy, positive and cheerful, and please spend more time on finding yourself and THINKING!!! she was quite true to say that, I am not such people to always funny and most of the time is in negative mood... :( I told myself when I back to home from Pan Ping's house, in my life there are some people I really cared and loving, but one of my goal is to know many people and make a lot of friends from all over the place, the reason I gave for this, just very simple, because I think in the day of future, We will help each other, and very believe in " duo ge peng you duo tiao lu"... maybe I am a bit over in this specific area... Further more, I don't know the real reason...

Sometime qiqi , huan huan will envy me to have such happiness family, my dad and mum they loving each other, and I have one blood brother at home, the rest of family members all happy to stay in together... I am proud to be one of them in this big , happy family!!! However nothing is perfect, I am like a follower or soldier, to do anything asked by my father, can not say NO, or rejected, I am unhappy and hurt by this... between Father and me, we TRYing hard to treat each other like a friend, can share good or bad times in our daily life, It is NEVER BE DONE...He still acted as A FATHER, I am still be his kids... not really self... Remember last time i wrote in QQ nickname, I can lose myself, my love, my friendship, but can't LET DAD DOWN, which is the only thing I can not do... is it true ? yea... think so... no... maybe it is so called a excuse I often gave to myself...

......don't know.... how ??? ask for help??? or keep going like this ??? changing??? NO.... WORKING HARD TO IMPROVE ON!!!

No matter what, I am living with all friends, please accompany , motivate and besides me all the time.... I am just very scared lonely... Even I like watch movie or go beach alone...

QI SHI WO ZI JI DO BU LIAO JIE ZI JI ---- KE BEI......

unpredictable....

2006-10-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today is 24th of Oct.... we broke off 9 months... everything is fine to me, no more expections... in chinese we saying that, zhen de kan kai le .... no matter what happened on us, like you just sat opposite me or I saw you around school.. there is nothing, feel free and relax... of course I am still be natural and happy.... BUT!!! Yesterday after your UT... that was so unpredictable... you came towards to yan xin, wei jia and me, told us that you wanna sit and eat together... further more, you played games with us, indirectly talked to me, I was shocked and confused by your reaction... You may understand what kind of feeling I had at that moment, since we broke off till now, I was trying hard to talk to you, sent message and chat online with you, you were really like a cool man, never given a chance,and treated me like air or transparent glass...

I really don't understand what's going on or what will happend in the future... I asked yan xin, she never replied, maybe she does not how to answer me, maybe she purposely wanna train me to face this problem by self... Sok Feng gave me this answer" maybe he wanna be your friend, just don't know how to speak out, and sometimes we won't know the reason for some certain things, but afterwards we will know what it exactly be.... " haiz... whatever all over... If there is a FADE between me and you, it will work to let us be friends again... even a normal male and femal friends...

Now we are enjoying our life in our own way.... all the best, good luck and take care, you are really slimmer than last year when we were together, only can say this to you, nothing more... To me, I just hope that I am be able to keep it on to whatever I am doing here...

Lastly Today we went to gui dao( forgot the English name), so hot and sleepy..haha... Yesterday I really wannt to invite you to join, but in the end, I did not have such confidences... hoho...

16th of Oct.2005

2006-10-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

Why did I write this blog? only for commemorating last year... First time withdraw momey from my Bank account... which is not my father's, it was my own income... because I was working in school library for 70hours.The total payment was $315... still remember the moment I withdraw out the $50... I was going to cry out... From his face, I understood that he was quite shocked and unbelievable...hehe .... so much differences here, today i won't go check my account... because almost 2months never worked in rp library... besides me is not him, replace with other closed friends!

well... let all those memories pass freely.... haha... not too much sad than before... enjoy my life in my way...

haha...... looking forwald..when we graduate! maybe there will be something changed... whatever ON MY WAY TO ....

my god... just relized that coming three days got UT... die ...... have to study ... to show my power and proof to myself that I can do it... in front of SEG... good luck !! tomorrow got Event, wear nicely and formal..haha...

just end here....

feel sick...

2006-10-13T17:39:00.000+08:00

Don't know why I was feeling tired during the lesson, and headache in some way... And I don't wanan eat.... in the end forced myself to have had you mian... haiz... really felt sick...

Actually I don't know what I can write down here, no much thing can share with ... just in mood again...maybe it is because I did not do well for today's lesson...

whatever be happy !!

siao, first time to use this font size ... will look cool...haha...

261days ...special ??

2006-10-12T15:02:00.000+08:00

261days already since we broke off on 24th of Jan.2006... the total days we have been together is the same days... xiao tong told me there will be some surprise come in this specific day!! Last night Liang yun sent a message to say, he likes me... in the first place, I was shocked by him... maybe it is a Surprise... am I get ready to give a try ... I don't think so ... because my mission and vision still waiting for me... I can not let my father down...

He is a good guy, I wanna give him and myself a chance, BUT some how, I scared that I will got pain or heartbroken again... in the end, just be my best male-friends here... don't think too much...

sian... make me mad...

2006-10-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

What happened on her??? so easily got angry with me.... actually she does not know me so well, and always put me into her own box.. must be followed by, can not escape!!! what the hell !? make me crazy.... and felt tired to her friend... few times already... how come like that ? maybe i should thank the God to give me such a really friend, maybe just like what I told yan xin, sok feng all those people, she loves me a lot , not treat me as a normal female friends...haiz.. don't know what i can say about this...

This evening I went down the Westmall to watch world trade centre... the show was quite nice and touching, I have learned something from it " what the meaning of PAIN, it means you still alive no matter what happened on you! Another thing is called in chinese " ren xing ben shan" ...

Don't know why I miss my mum very much tonight, of course I called back to my home, so shocked she did not go out to play MAJIANG.... when she picked up the phone, she was so surprise to answer the phone from me, and when I told her I miss you at the moment, then I just called you for chat... haha... not tricky... It is my FIRST time to tell her I miss her ... My mum said that" wah.. so happy till can not fall asleep... " haha.. very sure she will tell my father... between mum and me, we always like the sisters... whatever she wearing or the personalities, we two are quite similar..haha... no wonder she is my mum... haha... just a few mins talked with her, felt much better...

Just realized that I have not finished to do my Japanese homework...haiz.. keep it up... recently I am trying hard to do the SEG... gan ba dei !! haha...

My msn nick was purposely wrote to me, bao jun and him... and anyone of us!!! :)

new laptop!!!

2006-10-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

I am a the luckiest girl in my world... compare to my friends and classmates.. I really to be ....

Just few days ago, I told wei jia that I want to buy a new laptop, because ACER's USB drive can not be used, actually can be repaired...BUT....never go anywhere to do check or repair .... this moring, I called back father, to tell him that I have chatted with Dr.Yu already and gave him a excuse why i wanna change notebook, he agreed just in a short while... maybe in a few seconds...

Then I spent my whole afternoon to buy a new one -- COMPAQ!!! Much better than ACER!!

Right now i am not such happy than what i supposed to be... feel so so .... I miss my father .. treat me so well, whatever I need for study... or what I lack of .... he will give to me started from I was a child....

From Dr.Yu, i understood my father well, and much clearier what my mission and vision are... the stress === lucky!!! hope I will keep going on.... and do well....

haiz...

Special Mid-Autumn Festival

2006-10-07T10:27:00.000+08:00

Now I wanna share some stories about my forth Mid-autumn festival here...

- Moring, Sok feng just met me and beelay for a short minutes then she went to "celebration", from her dressing, I think she went to beach to "kiss" the Sun!!! haha.. :p

-Before Lunch, I was trying hard to do the Circuit Lab... wah... I was able to do already, to get the waveform and all the connection are correct... a bit excited and started to like SEG gradually... hoho ... :)

-Lunch Time. Wei Jia went to buy lunch, I was sitting at canteen, I asked myself, "how are you, few days never seen you even we never talked, but just wanna see you to know you are still fine..", suddently I saw him just directly sat opposite me... he had lunch with his friends. wang bo, chen yan ru all those... BUT... look more slimer and older than before... haiz....
Even he quite near to me, I realised that I don't really bothered, and no much expections... till night, i never sent a message to say happy mid-autumn festival to him, improving!!!

-Evening!!! wah .... super angry and siao !! Qiqi and me strongly disagree to use the salt-water! and we two said clearly we will support the finance, just need you bring her to see doctor only !!! what F... AND S... WOMAN in the world... nainai is her own my mother , how can be treated like this... haiz... look down you he su ping... in chinese we saying " zhuang bi !!!" Filial really wanna give her palm.... what is called "FILIAL" SHE DOESN'T UNDESTAND !! HOW CAN BE A HUMAN !!!! rubish !!! ( spelling wrong)

haiz.... another thing is about wang bao jun! he told wei jia and ren hong yu, he felt sorry to me..because of his powerful girlfriend... whatever is none of my concerning... haiz..

you see, HOW WONDERFUL MY ZHONG QIU JIE !! HAIZ... SIAN !!

...... no title today !

2006-10-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

I was staying at home for whole day, just went out for a short while to buy the Milk Tea and Fruit...
Staying at home, praticing my Japanese Speaking , and did the homework... of course, I also cooked the Lunch for yeye nainai and myself... The taste was not very bad... :)

Actually I was thinking to go school today to ask Tom, how to do the Labview, but in the end, i just sent a simple message to cancel it, because of lazy !! haiz.. Same time, I made a appointment with Dr.Yu, to meet him on coming Sat... To chat with him, it is what my father asked me to do so...

After our dinner, some of aunty's friends came our house to visit yeye nainai, their voice is quite huge!! huan huan, qiqi and me, all of our three , we wore on the earphones to listen the music, trying harder to escape their voice... haiz...

Today was quite peaceful., nothing much happened to me, nothing special... not much can say in my blog here,BUT some more I felt a bit upset without the reason ...

haiz...

I purposely wrote my msn nick, " Do you remember you had eated chololate mooncake before?" It is because last year, i brought that to him when we go to visit Singapore Army...

less than one week, 261 days.... It is easy to say, but hard to do... to let it go free and take it easy... Especially i am a sensitive person...Whatever I felt sicking when I see wang bao jun!!!

ai ya... really worring about my SEG... Even i always encourage myself....

HEY... HAPPY NATIONAL DAY...

2006-09-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

WAH... Just finished reading yanxin's blogger... Second time to read hers... because the blog address I always remember wrongly...hehe... sorry ar :)

Be touched in some certain ways... haiz.... Today I Went out to meet xiao tong ... nothing happened... just like a normal dating... BUT !! I was so careless, I forgot to bring out my wallent ... so sian.. but it was a good way to lose weight...haha... when I was walking down the Orchard road, to look the different people who walked by me... and imagined what the life style they are having etc... From the faces can roughly know they are happy or suffering...

Today is a bored day to me... wake up already around 11am... did some revision about my Japanese... then turned on my laptop to listen music... nothing else..haiz.. BUT!! GONG LIANG YUN kept message me... don't know why I felt that he likes me.. but he never said out... quite funny... and the way of his thinking and tone, a bit similar with LI... can make jokes with... haiz.. to me.. I WON'T FIND ANY BOYFRIENDS BEFORE I FINISH MY STUDY!!

THE MOMENTS... I WILL CONTINUE THE "HISTORY" ...

recently I saw him around school, no talk, no eye-contact... no smile... used to it... and best wishes to him... he will always in my deep heart...

My father is so serious people... I Really wanna celebrate the happiness with him, but he does not wanna disturb my study..always be scrict...haiz..sian...

WAH... MY Older brother will bring his girlfriend to our family tomorrow...haha.. they will plan their wedding after that... so fast... i am third child in our family ... which means, i will marry with someone soon??haha... i don't think so .. because there are quite amounts of regulations which made by my lovely and scrict father!haha...

started to work harder!

2006-09-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY !! PROUD OF JIN FENG XIANG ! HAPPY AND PROUD FOR MY LOVELY. STRICT AND HARD WORKING FATHER ! Mr.WANG JIN MING !! :)

Last day around 11pm, I received a message from one of Jin Feng Xiang worker, she told me a good news of it. HAHA.. our resturant won a first run of the Food Competition in Yan Tai.. It will help us to get in finial match for 2008 Olympics Game... don't know how to express it.. whatever all my friends knew it...haha.. just wanna write down here...
In that moment, I realised that I must start to working hard and harder.. for my future misson and vision! much more things wait for me to achieve and work on! so must must to begin with !!

Compare my goal to him, He is like a drop of water in the sea.. so small issue.. I put him into my deep heart and be the best sweet memories.... best wishes to him... if there is a fate between you and me, surely got one day we can be friends again! now i won't be bothered any more!

say goodbye to last day, looking forward!!!
jia you.....

the moments...

2006-09-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

The moment of ...
we saw each other at Rp Redhill Compous Library first floor on 18th of Apr 2005, after first RP school day...
we kept sendting message between us... before the 7th of May 2005...
we went to Pulau Ubin and You told me that you like me, wanna be together on 7th of May 2005...

First time we seprated because during the 2006 June holiday, I was back to China for 7 days... quite miss in that moment...
First time we played the breaking up game... during the Red Hill Blues Drama performances...
First time we went to Sentosa for celebrating gathering on 7th of Sep.2005...
First time we quarreled, because you always kept asking me whether like you or no...
......................................... CAN NOT BE COURNT! MANY THINGS THERE!!!

The moment I knew what can be heartbroken on 24th of Jan 2006...we broke up!
The moment I fetched you from airport, missed you... on 15th of Feb.2006...
The moment I heard you slept with her in the bedroom on 18th of Feb 2006...
The moment I saw the photo of your travel in Cheng Dou with her on 20th of Apr.2006, school restarted, same day, but different story...
The moment I stood besides you, but no any talking and conversation between you and me... on 27th of May 2006...
The moment we sat opposite for dinner, yan xin asked us why you two never talked, just few weeks before I was going back to China...
The moment I saw you that doing the parttime job in resturant, asked you that why you work so harder in my heart, never said out...on 19th of August 2006...
The moment I chatted with you by msn, heart was painful, some more crying out... 23th of Aug2006...
The moment I received your handphone message to welcome me back Singapore on 9th of Sep2006, so surprise and shocked.. of course, excited...
The moment I did not see you when I went to resturant in a secret way during IMF...13th-20th of Sep.2006...
The moment I saw the photo in your display...surely understood nothing can be expected...on 21th of Sep 2006, first school day of year 2 semester 2...

..........

MANY THINGS...
WELL. MUST MUST, DIE DIE START TO FORGET AND TAKE IT EASY !!!

What he expects me to achieve, I must work for it!!! haiz...

Who is always be there to support me ?

2006-09-16T14:13:00.000+08:00

Hello... wang jing
How about your life? How's your mood? Everything going well? Long time never talked to you, really concerning you!

Few days left,new semester will started,everything will be refresh and you should looking forwald, what is your future planning?What you expect to happen and do? Do you them all clearly?

How about your holiday?Did you share anything with your Dad? then What's wrong with you? Because I got see your msn nickname?
......

Well, everything about me, still fine,but sometimes in mood, just like today,really no mood to do things, skip IMF working and slept till 10am+ wake up, somemore lazy go out... haiz... Whatever I will go marina square to "visit"him in a serect way...wahaha... recently I always recalled what my father said to me about my school life, he doesnot understand me and upset me...I was really disappointed...haiz...I hope there is a person who always be there support me, can listen to me and share my sadness and happiness... However it is only a dream, I lost it long time ago... Even I know,I should looking forwald future,don't live in the past, Try new things and new challenge... No matter what,I lost my confidences, because I was believe that My father will proud of me, till that day... Finially I relized that I just lived in a box.No freedom, no true expection, no myself...haiz.. poor dan wa.... just like my nickname....

Maybe I purposely to do that, to let myself in mood,Maybe I truely need someone...

baba, wo zhen de hen nan guo... yin wei ni bu jin bu liao jie wo,geng jia rang wo nan guo ,shen zhi da ji le wo suo you de xin xin...

some lyrics really express my feelings....

2006-09-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

Anyone of us : It happen to anyone of us.. I made a stupid mistakes... by Gareth Gates

Oops, I Did it again : I played with your heart and got lost in the game...

I am not girl, not yet a woman: I used to think, I had the answers to everything, but now I know, that life doesn't always go my way...

Oh my love: The times that we've been through, I'm looking at a picture in my hand, Tring my best to understand, I really want to know what we did wrong with a love that felt so strong...

Overprotected: What a girl is to do, God, I need some answers, What am I to do with my life? You'll find it out, don't worry！How am I supposed to know what is right?

Don't let me be the last to know: Your body language says so much, yeah, I feel it in the way you touch, but till you say the words its not enough , come on and tell me you're in love, please don't let me be the last one to know, Just let it go , if you love me so...

Note: Above songs all from Britney spears...

Note: here, I will used pin yin to write down the nice lyrics about this Japanese song walking proud: by Ayumi
wo de zui ba sa xia le yi ge huang yan, chu zi wei bu zu dao de li you, bing fei wei le shui, huo xu zhi shi wei le bao hu yu mei de zi ji, tai tou yang wang de tian kong, hao mei ... wo kai shi xiang qi ni le ni , zhen xi wang zi ji neng gou xiang ni yi yang , jian qiang de chao qian fang mai jin...

Note: Following are all Chinese songs,According to time is limited, I just provided the name of songs, please go search by yourself If you like it too.. haha ... thanks :P （Acturally all old songs) haha....
1.ai ni de liang ge wo -- by wen lan
2.ni meng cao de wei dao -- by cai yi lin
3.shi zuo yong zhe -- by cai yi lin
4.ai de dai jia -- liang yong qi
5.ai wo bie zou -- zhang zhen yue
6.zui shu xi de mo sheng ren -- xiao ya xuan
7.ai yi ge ren hao nan -- su yong kang
8.hou lai -- liu ruo ying
9.qin ai de ni bu zai wo shen bian -- jiang mei qi
10.ni yi ding yao xing fu -- he jie
11.ni zen me lian hua dou shuo bu qing chu -- cai yi lin
12.wo bu hou hui -- zheng yuan
13.ting shuo -- liu ruo ying
14.wo ye hen xiang ta -- sun yan zi
15.wo xiang wo bu gou ai ni -- liu de hua & chen hui lin
16.yi zhi hen an jing -- a sang
17.tai wei qu -- tao jin ying
18.yi ge ren sheng huo -- lin fan
19.shou fang kai -- li sheng jie
20.ni bu zai -- wang li hong
........... there are a lot of songs I like, whenever I am trying to listen a new song I will look for their lyrics in the first place...

TRUE FEELINGS !!!

happy ...

2006-09-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

wah ....wah ... haha.... I am so happy !!!
around 11.13pm on 9th of Sep.2006, the first day I came back Singapore from holiday... I received a message from Li Cheng Yuan, haha.... excited... really happy and excited... haha ..This is the first time he is so active...haha.. don't know how to decibe(spelling wrong) my feeling. No matter what reason make him to send me a message, thanks to him and I will do something about it...

well... take care.. don't work too often... we guys , yan xin, cheeyuen, dit ching ...we all must work hard !! all the best for all of my friends... sok feng and beelay really miss you ...

miss u all...i came back from holiday~~

2006-09-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

wah....haha.... I came back Singapore this morning... but a bit sad. there is nobody to fetch me...somemore I imagine he will go to fetch me.. same as last time(31st of Dec.2005)..haha.. silly girl..whatever don't think too much...

wah... I was enjoying my holiday with my family... everyday stayed at home, either watched online show or rent some DVD movies... nothing else to do .. but I have learned a bit about cooking... haha.. improvement ..!!! :)

of coures i miss all my friends here and my blogger.. 13days did not write... haiz...

In these days, my father brough along me to go for meeting or business, I learned a lot.. expect next year during the chinese new year when i go back again, i will staymore days and experience more...

well. new beginning bar.. study harder... plan everything well...

I'm in the airport ...

2006-08-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

wah .. what a amazing!!! Now I am using the airport computer to write this blog...haha ...so special... becuase down here got free internet access. Even only 15mins for each passenager...haha...

This moring, i wake up quite earlier and suffering sore thorat again, I was happily to pack up everythings for back china.. of course i got read few article before the oral exam.... in some way, recall the conversation between me and him last night...

In the afternoon, i went to oral exam... sian.. i din't think i do a good job.. the second question they asked me, i did not answer well, ok .... fine... already over, think too much also no use.. prepare for my writing paper bar!:)

This evening i was going to watch the snakes on the plane with gaoyanxin, the show was so cool and scared... some more a bit nervous for me.. because later on i will abroad the plane!haha.. just kidding... she made some jokes to me.... haha.. hey , take care!

After this holiday , i will rebirth myself. whatever happend to me.. i will spend some time to think though, and once i get back, everything will refresh and new... no more expection , only wanna say , thank you for you guys who concerning me... on the other hand, i would like to say , because of you , I know what can be called as love... ni shi xing fu de, wo jiu shi kuai le ...

well, 15mins going to finish.. enjoy my journey.. and guys , c ya i only back home for 13days.. once i back surely become fatter and fatter.. don't be so shock :P

This after noon

sorry... all over... rebirth ...

2006-08-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for my love.... today is a special day for us... 24th of Jan, we broken off ,till now already 7 months... I miss you all the time... whenever and wherever i am...

In the earlier moring of today... from 1am to 2.45+am we chatted online... I asked you many many questions...I got back two thing -- you HATE me and I HURT you deeply !!! feel so sorry ....but still happy for we could communicate after 7months...

I gained a lot of things...after this .... in chinese saying : ni shi xing fu de ,wo jiu shi kuai le de .... only wanna say this to you in the end....

wang jing must rebirth ... give yourself more space, free yourself and looking forward......

a bit heart-broken ..... :(
unforgettable!!!

the break up...

2006-08-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

I Went to watch the break up in the evening...with Gao Yan Xin...the movie was nice, and touching in some certain ways... some more reflect the relationship between me and li... BUT the role are different... me to be the man( Vince), he was like Jennifer...haiz...

...........................hopeful he will go watch it too.... and ...............................................................................................................................................................

silly girl again! :)

one more week left...

2006-08-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

Only one week left before I fly back to China... A bit excited... more about Expectation... in sence of .... ( I think all my friends will know what it refers to :p ) haha... silly girl....

Today we learn y-parameter, because last week I did not enter class, so for today's problem, i was fully lost... but I am not very worrying about... still got few days can do revision and study for UT... BUT PCB!!! sucks! all C and D in my daily grade.. scared that I fail the module.. hate koh chee keat !!! :(

Now my classmates are packing up and sponing school again ... I am very "guai" today...so I will still be in class, but also no use... no contribution to my team.... sorry for that... haiz...

Actually , today nothing much can share at here... don't know how to express this kind of feeling... haiz... REALLY expect something can happen ... some more like a surprise ... hehe ..
WANG BAO JUN... is not come to school... remember the message he sent to me last time, so funny and trick me again, even I don't bother so much... just think back... How foolish I was !!! haiz..

oh yea!! forgot to say..my mum is on her Eurpoean trip... wish her can enjoy it and safely back home... of course must buy present for us!!! haha.

wah ... the < click> is a nice show should be watch

2006-08-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should proud of myself..Maybe I should laugh at myself... Maybe I was just a bit wrong with myself... I watched two movies this evening alone!! I was truely enjoying the show...

is a funny show, I gained that what can be call a TRUE LOVE, even you are superwoman or a normal person... It is hard to escape from this love feeling ... It is also one of important part in everyone's life... Anybody will experienced in their own way...either You love someone more deeper or The person giving you more...

....wah ... very nice show you should spend the time to sit in cinema watch it and put yourself into that shoes..." Must always remember Family Come First, take Good care of your family, there are will someone truely loving you and wait for you , don't be jealous and busy for your own working Etc ....> that's all I learned from the movie.... somemore I think I'd better recommand it to my father..haha..

I did not book for working in this whole week, very free...Today when I wake up around 9.10am, and after pack up reached school almost lunch time, never entered class, playing quiz test about personalities whole afternoon... I also not going ISC camp... the reason I gave is the period come ..haha.. actually is not true... haha.. just a excuse... The really reason is that , I wanna take break for a while... Since this semester started, Everyday either busy for IG activities or Part-time working, Just left less time to myself... tired in some areas... Now most of all recovered, more happier and Enjoying my life with friends.. eat + play + shopping + chatting ... So I told myself, must treat self well, and be a true.... therefore I did not go camp...Even they really wanna to join and get much fun there......

haha... keep it up... and looking forwald the talk between my father and me, and my brother ... I can do it !! haha... oh yea!! waiting for 3 coming show<>, <>, and <> haha... :)

Anyway, wang bao jun called me when I was watching the show. He did not say much things, I felt quite funny, gave him a chance to say whatever he wanna say to me, but he ....haiz.. again ... in chinese say" zhuang!" .. anyhow .. I won't really bothered....

Maybe it is so called"fate"

2006-08-09T02:28:00.000+08:00

Wah, long long time I and qiqi never gone for walk in the evening.This evening both of us met at clementi macdonald, I accompanyed her to have dinner at there...and chatted as well... After she finished, we went back home first and changed to some confortable shoes and dressing, we went out again around 9pm, Between her and me, we talked about many many things, include how we felt about aunty, her son, and our school life all those... shared the most happiness thing to each other...

When we sat in the play ground, suddenly asked me:"jingjing jie jie, long time never heared from you to say about li chengyuan?" At the moment, in the first place, i was quite shocked, but I quickly answered"He busys for accompany girlfriend.." I lied to her, maybe she knows or may not be... In the end, she told me seriously, "compare to all the guys you know , I always thought li chengyuan is much suitable for you, according to your own personalities, your boyfriend must be someone can listen to what you are saying, and be able to make fun such as make jokes with you... can not be some person just treat as a younger sister one...." she also advices me to purposely gave li chengyuan a hint to let him know, i am instrestd in him etc" .... I just listened without saying anything... what the hell the feeling is... not too sad not happy.. In singapore, it is called" sian"...in chinese can say" yumen".. at least he belongs to me once i told myself in my mind......haiz...

haiz... never mind ... I most recovered ... don't worry man!!!

haiz... school sickness

2006-08-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

Again... school sickness .... When i was walking to clementi mrt station...my eyes almost closed... so sleepy.... my leg couldn't walk properly...Really wanna go back and sleep on the bed....

haiz.. but the thing is that, tommorrow is the Nationaly Day... huanhuan and qiqi will back home in the earlier morning... so, if they see me not going to school, surely will asked me a big amont of questions ....headache for that...haiz...

Today is 8th of Aug...yesterday 7th !!! I went back China in March this year, just for rebirth myself... and forget whatever I can, but seems like useless.. almost half year passed, I still be the same, the only differences is that I made many many friends here , and got two special friends, they are singaporeans ---sok feng and bee lay! others like tan chee yuen, gao yan xin, wei jia ... all be my good friends here.... BUT NOBODY IN MY HEART ANYMORE...

Coming Sep I will going back again... I must take a good rest and share whatever I experienced in this half year with my father... of course, i must start to write my PP...

I extremely tired in some specific areas... understand?

all gone

2006-08-04T14:52:00.000+08:00

Haiz... on tuesday I sent to bao jun a message, just asked how about him recently, even we didn't talk for a long time,but as his best friend , somemore I was thinking about him... till yesterday around 7pm, i received a long message from him, inside the message, he kept saying, he won't forget those memories we had, our favourate place in school, and the sentosa beach, and the fun we made...many things he got cover... when i read it, a bit miss him... but in the end, never replied..

Today he did not come school, whatever I won't borthered... I told beelay and sokfeng this thing, sok feng said this time is really up to me, if wanna him to be friend again, then just treasure him, but better make sure yourself won't be so trust him..haiz.. anything bar!

Yesterday before my UT starts, I quite hungry... then i asked gao yan xin eat with me, but in the first place i did not even know he was there too, felt very unconfortable.. but what yan xin said was true, he could see i will having dinner with yan xin, but he did not leave, so just be natural sit down there... why I purposely take away food... haiz... the moment i sat opposite him,i did not have enough confidence to look at him, i just eat and listen the conversation between them two...haiz... suddently , yan xin asked two of us, how come you two never talked ? the air like freeze in that moment, we two kept slient, saying nothing for this... maybe we missed one chance again.. is it called fate? maybe .... no matter what, i already gave up, no more expection! only can say, best wishes to li cheng yuan ....

well, on 25th of Aug i will back home for 10days... haha..

recently I talked to yang han yu quite oftenly, things like funny ... and maybe ..... but most of all is may not be!!!!!!!! haha...

sad....

2006-07-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

My motivation is gone, No more expection ....haiz... so sad to know my brother can not come Singapore , because he is quite young age, the ICA don't allowed...visa problem... Nothing can say... just felt very sad and upset... I am sure that he will feel same as what I am..

I really willing him to come, to live with me, and meet all my friends here... and we can shared whatever happened to us and communicate with each other, all of those , only between him and me, no third world knows... even our parents...BUT!!! Anyway, I am planning go back for 10days... like what father said inside the message, my whole family miss me, and Between Dad and me can talk about our lifes, becuase I am already be a adult... some more I will start to write my PP... The person who in charge of is my lovely Dad!! haha..

Today Actually got Interpoly BBQ, but I went off in the half way, not very happy at that moment, when I reached Clementi was around 8pm+, then I went to Jurong East to watch <>, the borest movie I never watched before, almost fall asleep there,So again, during the movie, I left and back to home... Now , I just chatting with friends and writing my blogger... I just wanna very peaceful to let the time pass... haiz..

Today my mood like up and down... maybe my period coming soon in these few days... heihei ..

Whatever tomorrow ( sian, forgot the spelling then i used Encarta to search) ...I will go Chinatown to book my air-ticket... cheer up!!! :) and happy working at following night .... haha..

haha.. my motivation coming soon

2006-07-28T14:28:00.000+08:00

Wah... happy !!! haha.. my younger brother will come Singapore less than one week... can not wait for him anymore... I have beening overexcited...He is one of my motivations in my heart besides my father...

Somemore I am planning go back to China during the holiday, maybe only 1 week, maximum is 10days... cause I am charge in S 2006... haiz... I miss my father as well as other family members... especially miss my mum's cooking...haha... Another reason is to celebrate father's birthday together...

Before 20th of August, only my dear Dad in Lanzhou. Mum is going to European tour, brother come here to visit me... haiz.. my poor father...

These few days, I think I have already rebirthed... I wanna talk to wang bao jun, I wanna introuduce him to wang qiang, both of them heared each other name for quite long time already... but never met before... If possible, I will ask baojun accompany me go airport to fetch qiang...haha...not very confirmed yet..still thinking...whatever, I am still hate him in some ways... just like what I used for my msn nick, because of him, I lost you! ... Make a guess who he is and you are... should be two person! haha...

well, study for UT... Otherwise die... close book!!! :(

rebirth...

2006-07-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

WAH... firstly, i am glad to tell anyone who got my blogger address... finially I wanna rebirth myself... Reback to last two month, since our year 2 semester started.. Most of time when I felt upset or sad,all due to li cheng yuan, but now...quite used to it to no any talk between him and me, and further more, I don't have much feelings than before...It is a good news for me and as well as my friends

so NOW ,NO mre expections and all the best to anyone in my heart whenever in the beginner is ..this year or in the middle of it...

Tomorrow UT... have not started yet.. surely die..haiz..
well, my eyes can't open properly..so tired.....today i worked full day at waraku... in the evening, did station c...only one person who is myself looking after Station C.. busy and ma fan ...haiz...
well, good night ...maybe i will write again in the following day..

recall back...

2006-07-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

wah...so sian and sibiesian(singapore dialogue,spelling wrong)!! these few days whereever I went to ... weijia always besides me... because most of the time was me go out to accompany her... she was so sad for breaking off ... me!! as one of her best friend in her heart , definitely should support and encourage all the time... even i was tired by doing work....what I can do for her.. just like what I did...

some more I was shocked by the power of TRUE LOVE.. how to express my feeling , I am not so sure... But I know exactly this kind of heartbroken I never suffered before...even after broken off with li cheng yuan... But In that time, to him, I never given a feeling or confidences, to let himself knew, i was really like him, It is becuase I did not say out by any words...haiz... therefore, when I was weijia , listening whatever she said about the broken relationship, and how she felt ... things like the reflection of li... maybe he would be same as her, but for guys.. they normally won't cry oftenly in front of people.... some how I Truely understand what li said to me in the last day we went out together..." i will hate you if we really broke" and understood more why he does not wanna give me a chance to be one of his friends...... so I told myself... it is called jiu you zi qu+ zi zuo zi shou! no one can help... and all belongs to FATE~~ YUAN FEN~ .. we don't have any choices....

So, in my nickname i wrote, whatever we had, all over.. best wishes to you!
in my MSN nick, I put... hard to love somemore, it is hard to hate someoner either, to be a human and be self more harder...haiz...

Happy birthday to my dearest friend --TAN SOK FENG

2006-07-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

Wah...20th of July is my dearest friend Tan Sok Feng's birthday, me and beelay bought her a birthday gift and treated at waraku... of course, we went to take neo-print again for this special day... very enjoyable with them...

Since 2003 , I came Singapore till now, besides aunty, huan huan, qiqi, It was the first time I went out to celebrate birthday... to me, really unforgetable... as a different country people, we can be such closed friends... happy for that...and zhen xi as well...

On this Tuesday, wei jia broken off her first love with her boy-friend... She heart-broken and so upset in these 2 days, I tried my best to convince her and chatted with her.. but things like useless... she is so stubborn in front of love..haiz... reading her journal..some more understand her feelings and hurt....

yerterday, no class, i went to da ba yao with weijia, we two bought one ring to wear... I am wearing on the finger which I normally do .... only 3 dollars.. quite cheap..but looked nicer...

hehe...nothing special happend in these two days besides sok feng birthday... one more thing, maybe after August, I will change my part-time job... see so many unfair thing among there...and one of my motivation will leave soon..haiz...

maybe it is good for us...

2006-07-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

Maybe It is really good for us... I always hope you can give me a chance to be one of your friends... You have never rejected me straight forward...But what you did to me, already showed you would not accept me... Because I hurt you deeply... because I keep making a day-dream.... Girl and Boy relationship sometimes just like this... when we happy ,we can do whatever we want and like , share happiness and sadness. Once broke, It is really hard to say good bye to whatever we had before and difficult to treat each other just be a normal person in our heart...

Today I went to temple again for lucky pick...This time was a bit bad, it caused me so disappointed and willing to cry... I told myself it is not only because li cheng yuan, some more about myself , especially my study... whatever I can give to my father, my result...haiz...I tried so hard to cheer up and be more confident and happy...things like no any uses...Perhaps when I was outside with a group of people, I will more happy and happening one, however no matter what, I know i Just acted...behind is a true me...

Yesterday Evening I went to NP international night.. so unpredictable, I saw her( his present girlfriend) face to face... even we did not talk or a simple smile...but I know we are totally different kind of people... personalities or hobbies...some how, a bit sad and jealous of her...haiz...

I suddently decided go to sentosa by myself in the evening when I on the train to home...I was sitting on the place where he and me broken off...At that moment I expected him besides me...like last time when we sat down and made jokes between us...Anyway, no tears flow through...he just fulfilled my heart...haiz... around 9pm I called to him...asked few questions I hang on...because he was working , same excuse as last call...but he got reply my messages and asked me go back earlier and rest well...He said he will back home later and talk to me next time... Even it was not what I wish, I thank for him... to give me message replying...haiz...

Well... these two days..i crazy for a song , the lyrics I like most...: anyone can hurt someone they love and I made a stupid mistakes......."

Whatever I know I am waiting for you online... maybe now you are appear offline either in msn or qq... no matter the truth is , I will send you my journal and leave a message on qq.... hopeful I can do it and will ended all these nicely...

in mood again!!

2006-07-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

What the hell ? The beach in the world .... he su ping.. so called as my parents in Singapore... How come she can treat me like this ? What's the fuck !!!( sorry .. i was super angry, therefore i say the offensive words here)... haiz.. not only because She did not prepare the money to pay my school fees.. it is due to I can not bear her anymore! 3 years... I have beening staying with her since I came Singapore... Whatever she did to me.. all of those are far from what she promised to my father... that's why my father always misunderstand me.. and trust her deeply... I grow up already.... my father still worrying about me... maybe he love me too much.. scared the bad things will happend to me... maybe he doesn't trust my ability neither.. don't know!! don't wanna know also...

Anyway, so in mood... this whole week I passes happily and enjoyable.. Besides today, everying in mine was quite fine... I just wanna keep this as long as possible.. but now!! unfair to me!! some more feeling wanna cry... anyway, no tears ...

I saw his msn nick..." FOREVER LOVE"...One of the song by wang li hong... the lyrics is nice and make sence ... but not for our case... It is more suitable for a couple..haiz... maybe he wanna reprent the good relationship between he and his present girlfriend! ...

Today I brought the neo-print box... inside got my favorate rings and hand wing... of course, there are many neo-prints photos about us... so nice and sweet memories there...whatever ... we broken for almost half year... haiz...

Last Saturday, I went to temple for the lucky pick, what I asked is that can he and me can be friends again...what I GOT... It sounds good... but I still can not do anything to change or improve on... weijia told him when they met at workin place... perhaps he will consider or pay a attention.... or just ignored it as soon as he can......

well. CHEER UP...

the longest distance in the world...

2006-07-07T18:54:00.000+08:00

The longest distance in the world is in our heart...
At that moment, he just sitting behind me, listen the conversation between me and my friends... and watching how my friends playing the puzzle game around me... but we never talked......Today he wore a new t-shirt , look nicer than black and write... the time we togethered, besides this two color no others at all.haiz...

Tuesday UT did not do well... and quite upset in this whole month.. i was crying out... I sent a message to him. hope he would go out and chat with me... but till now no any message from him... that's why I told myself , i must end of all those stupid things by myself.. i was so tired.. especailly heart!!! haiz... well.. don't feel much sad when I saw him again today ...

good luck ... and study harder and harder.... must do well than wang bao jun...... why ? between me and him never be as usual.... more like stranger!!??

much better now...

2006-07-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

wah... UT i did worst than last time.. PCB design!!haiz...
After UT.. directly went to school library to do RJ...Since holiday started till now.. always in mood... it was caused me cry... I was walking to woodland mrt alone... no one besides me.. suddently the tears cannot control any more........haiz...

finially I gave up......

......

no any changes in me...

2006-07-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

Well. One day passed...nothing got changed in mine... whatever studing or mood... This morning, i was late for lesson for almost 30mins... besides wake up late for 30mins, I was sitting down E2 first floor to think whether enter class or no... after deep thinking, i went to class and very in mood and difficult to stay at there for whole day.. for pbl working, I tried my best to do it...but my Orcad never worked .... felt very upset....some how give up for this module... even i kept saying I can overcome all my problem..and always confront myself ... anyway no use in this moment...

recently i was so disappointed ... and don't feel going to school.. especially enter class.. why ? what's wrong with me? who can understand me well? and save me... i worry about myself and do nothing for this... haiz...

waiting for my brother qiang come singapore, i think i will be more happy... we can share whatever we faced and suffered...

.....

haiz.... feel sorry for my parents and self...

2006-07-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz... England let me down... Brasil shock me! I feel sorry for my dear parents as well as myself....haiz...

Some how I don't wanna go school tommorw .. school sickness.. especially orcad! haiz... who can save me ? noone is here protact and understand me ...

Looking for a another Jay Chou ... maybe only me know what the exactly reason behind this nickname... Really wanna call you in many times... when I see your number.. I just wanna push phone call button.. just directly talk to you... when i saw you at school canteen... want to go towards and chat with you ... haha... what's wrong with me ? in my world.. you are not one person...haiz..

whatever... I must overcome my school sickness and go to learn japanese as soon as possible..start from this month ...

I hurt him deeply ..

2006-06-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

Haiz... yesterday after ISC presentation i went to school library with gao yan xin, in the first place, i don't even know he was there... so i just followed..but when we two saw each other face to face again... we did the same thing, just treated as the transparensis..haiz.

I don't have much confidence to sit besides him to do whatever i was doing, so i directly went off... only left gao yan xin, gao yang, and him... this moring, when i met her, she told me... she got ask li , why not speak to me.. the answer given quite short me... it was because i was the first one who broke off with him and really hurt him deeply.. in that moment, my tears was going to flow down from my eyes... i controled...

just now before lunch, i gave zhang yuanyuan the address of my this blogger, to let her read though.. all those are from true heart.. i didn't hide anything... in some how i wanna send this to his qq as a leaving message.. but very unsure , he will read it...haiz...
what else i can do .. maybe just try to used to it...
now i am sitting at class.. around me, someone do the ppt.. but most of people just playing games.. like me.. no much in mood to study.. so just listen to my music.. and writing all those.. it is a good tool to be used when i happy or bad times... like a mirror.. can say anything i wanna...

li cheng yuan, now i am considering give u a call.. if possible, we can meet after my working tonight... but i know exactly what kind of people u are.. and last time, before we broke off, you told me" you will hate me!" .... sorry .. yoyo!!

now , listenning<> .... last time, u love to call me"paopao" .remember? yoyo? haha..haiz... what the hell man!

Haiz..why u always like this ?

2006-06-25T19:37:00.001+08:00

haha... basketball match have completed by today... we went to celebrate together. Between us never talked or smile.. even not took photo..

I have sent messages to him either msn or handphone.. even he got reply, but still as stranger..nothing can say and share...haha... our friends hated this way...because they wanna call both of us go out to get fun.. the problem is , only one of us will go ...

haiz...don't know what i can say...

Haiz..why u always like this ?

2006-06-25T19:37:00.000+08:00

no reason...

2006-06-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

Why did I bring fanliang to watch our basketball match last day purposely ? What is the mean reason for I did this ? What's wrong with me since school reopened ? ... So many questionmarks in mine... sometimes I also don't understand what happend to me ? Everyday wake up around 7,30am... 1hour late than before... hating go school... and can not fully concentrate on whatever I am doing... sorry for my friend Bee Lay.. she has been waiting for me at wooland mrt every day... but I always be a late comers... haiz...

Yesterday I brought Fan Liang to watch our basketball match... No one know him, because he is a ITE students.. we knew each other by Fuming recommand... some people misunderstood that he is my boyfriend... I saw Li looked me while I was talking to fan liang... haha... so crazy and surely got problem in my mind... to show off... and let Li confused... haiz... wang jing why ?

Today when i wake up already going to reach 8am.. so I finished washed up.. directly come to our library.. later on will work here ...as 2 weeks I did not working... after noon I Will go s 2006 birefing as well as go support our team.. today is semi-match between PSB school and our RP.. all the best to all the players....haha ...jia you!

I AM NOT BE MYSELF... WHO I AM ?

what's wrong with me?

2006-06-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

...tears....

2006-06-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

UT did not do well.. wang bao jun don't understand me... in the pass, whenever happened, still got him besides me support and encourage me.. but now ..." no one is here to understand me..." my msn nick....haiz...

I heard zhuli and Tom said what they done during our UT... I started to worry my study... long time did not study and revise...in some way, i forgot how to do ...haha..haha.. laugh at myself...

maybe i am a person who scared failed... after June holiday , i hate going to school.. just wanna stay in some places think or read books.. or just sleep for as long as i can .. in chinese we say ... tuifei!!

These few days, QQ accompany with her father go out , huanhuan with aunty, only me in the middle... homesick again... don't know how to say i miss you to my parents.. so just sms to my father asked him how he is and told him i have had dinner with them.. i think my father will understand what i am trying to say...-- miss !!! haiz...

Today was so bad to me.... tears is going to flow through from my eyes... really wanna cry....
i wanted go sentaso to watch sea.. scared alone , i asked li yan go with me, but he was sick and never replied my message...felt very jian...

Now is 14th of 21th of June... later before 3am i will go mcdonald wathc world cup ,england vs another , after that i will sleep for a short well, if possible i will go sentosa by alone... in the afternoon directly go Jurong east..haiz...

good luck for my PCB learning..

2006-06-19T15:21:00.000+08:00

Today is the first school day after June holiday... very sleepy... last two weeks, normally i wake up around the lunch time.. but today no choice, must attend school on time... that's why i got up at 7am...later than last time, but much earlier than holidays..haha... even like this, feel in mood and a bit anger of bao jun...

I don't know what happened ? after he live with his girlfriend zzx... he changed a lot..sometimes i shocked by him... .haiz..

Yesterday li has just sat opposite me.. we never talked or smile...today is our basketball team vs sp...good luck for li all those players... he keep online and offine frequently... make me wanna msn to him..haiz... Besides tired... i was so in mood about my PCB Module.. i tried all my best to do ...but in end ... never success... very worry about my grade and FYP...haiz...

wang bao jun hurt me in some way ... but i don't know what it is...

crying....

haiz..

2006-06-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

Recently... so crazy.... everyday watch world cup till very late to sleep, and wake up around the following day lunch time... haha..

Today i am lazy to go working, horrible sore throat... scared after working can not talk...haiz..

Tomorrow will be very busy for basketball match..and in the evening, i will watch the 3matches...haha.. then following school starts..haiz... sian.. don't wanna go school..

,........................
yesterday so fun went out with sok feng and bee lay, we three had lunch at waraku, after that went shopping at bugis..bought a England t-shirt.. red color.. sok bought janpanese , and bee lay bought ba xi ... hehe .we took neo-print.. because we wore our new shirt, our three reprent favorite team individually ... haha...

haiz....

2006-06-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

Nothing special in these few days, everyday wake up around 10am, had breakfast, then sitting on the sofa to watch TV series<>,or turned on my laptop chatting online..whatever I am doing, just wasted my time to do revision,..even i quite worry about my subject, the problem is that I am not familiar with studying!! what the hell .... I have borrowed a good exercise book from RP library, but I haven't touched or opened it for one page! so horrible... haiz...

I don't knw what happened to me, currently I love to eat... spent a small amount of money on eating... yesterday I went to bo wei, uncle an Mrs Shen , both of them said that I look fatter than before... baiguang said same... so sad to hear that! haiz....

In some ways, I miss him again...really wanna sms or call him again! haiz...anyway, I came across one guy who come from shang hai, and his birthday is same as li chengyuan..haha... so coincident...haha...this guy is year3. and good looking in my view...haha... but the personalities a bit different from li cheng yuan.. he will work in rp library.. haha... I started make day-dream again about ....hehe .heihei ..

No matter what, just a bit more.. try to concentrate and work harder! otherwise I will died in circuit!!! in CAE!

haiz..good luck bar!

happy holiday ....

2006-06-02T14:35:00.000+08:00

Haha...Our June holiday starts from tomorrow... happy ..let's me enjoying it in my own way! I am planning to go Malaysia with tang xiao ying... try to get fun and relax myself as well.. recently quite busy and a bit tired....

Once i back , our chinese student club will begin to prepare basketball match on 18th of June to 25th of June... of course I must use my time more effectively.. in sence of studying+ O-level english+ working... haiz... many things wait for me to do and achieve it!! haha...

Nothing can write.. not too happy , also not bad mood..

wah ... we done it !

2006-05-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I proud of myself, our rp chinese student club done a good job... haha... The basketball match completed! haha...

Currently I was too tired... busy for this event, working as well as studying ..+ ut~~~ sometimes in mood about my personal things..haha.. I am satisfy with myself. in sence of .......don't know how to say, poor english !! haiz..:(

anyway, I am quite enjoying my life.... don't bother by others.. include him ..haha... I gave chance to be his friend.. whatever, i won't regreted.. and I will keep it up to do whatever i espected and must do well.!!! do myself proud!