i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
Today I went to bugis temple to lucky pick-up( qiu qian), the question i asked is about the continuration of relationship between me and Jiang Yuan... In the past one week, nothing happend within us, no message, no phone call, peaseful passed... we also never said broke up our relationship before he left lanzhou... I don't know what he is planning or doing right now? and i also unsure of what the purpose he chose me to be his girlfriend, maybe becuase he really likes or loves me...but most probably caused by my family, my background, my money... just like what the TV Series show... haiz...
BUT!!!!I finially relized one important thing !!! when i was a small girl, my vision and mission is about my father... how to be his standard or smart girl, how to show out in front of my father's friend... everything i did , just wanna let my father proud of ... of course it is also our duty as the child of parents.. but never and ever i thought of my own planning or goal~~~ before I had dinner with yan xin jie and others tonight, i was sitting near there and wacthing the sky... listenning the music and deeply thinking and planning!!!!FIRST TIME i found what I will do and plan to in next few years!!!
1. whatever reason, i won's say broken up with him.. just maintain this relationship by this way... like the slient way... becuase i was afraid of he will retaliate my family in the future... let me say, if he really likes me.. i am his hope and confidences to everything.... so base on these two... unless he say so, i will broke with him.. of course i won'be sad... it is double confirm thing!!! 2, I will go further study... acutually i have studing French started from this semester..I gave up Japanese, because for future use, French is much useful than Japanese, somehow i heard from father, he wanna develop Jin Feng Xiang in one day to be a real global company.... and my brother also like French language, in the earlier future, maybe when he is high school grade 2, he will go oversea study... still unknown.. but what i planning is to go third country to study, and be more mature , to open my mind, to truely enrich my knowledge!!! and some way, i can accompany with my brother in the first few years, if everything goes well... and under my control!~~
3, by right now... I will hard working on my fyp and school study... firstly pass PP!!! I strongly believe i can do it if i really wanna do something!~~!!...
be more brave, more independant, be more stronger!!!!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
im waiting for the day.
wangjing
14th december
republic poly
for you to tell me.
my family especially my father
ice-cream
xjy
bws
that you love me too.
be happy everyday
study hard