i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
Maybe It is really good for us... I always hope you can give me a chance to be one of your friends... You have never rejected me straight forward...But what you did to me, already showed you would not accept me... Because I hurt you deeply... because I keep making a day-dream.... Girl and Boy relationship sometimes just like this... when we happy ,we can do whatever we want and like , share happiness and sadness. Once broke, It is really hard to say good bye to whatever we had before and difficult to treat each other just be a normal person in our heart...
Today I went to temple again for lucky pick...This time was a bit bad, it caused me so disappointed and willing to cry... I told myself it is not only because li cheng yuan, some more about myself , especially my study... whatever I can give to my father, my result...haiz...I tried so hard to cheer up and be more confident and happy...things like no any uses...Perhaps when I was outside with a group of people, I will more happy and happening one, however no matter what, I know i Just acted...behind is a true me...
Yesterday Evening I went to NP international night.. so unpredictable, I saw her( his present girlfriend) face to face... even we did not talk or a simple smile...but I know we are totally different kind of people... personalities or hobbies...some how, a bit sad and jealous of her...haiz...
I suddently decided go to sentosa by myself in the evening when I on the train to home...I was sitting on the place where he and me broken off...At that moment I expected him besides me...like last time when we sat down and made jokes between us...Anyway, no tears flow through...he just fulfilled my heart...haiz... around 9pm I called to him...asked few questions I hang on...because he was working , same excuse as last call...but he got reply my messages and asked me go back earlier and rest well...He said he will back home later and talk to me next time... Even it was not what I wish, I thank for him... to give me message replying...haiz...
Well... these two days..i crazy for a song , the lyrics I like most...: anyone can hurt someone they love and I made a stupid mistakes......."
Whatever I know I am waiting for you online... maybe now you are appear offline either in msn or qq... no matter the truth is , I will send you my journal and leave a message on qq.... hopeful I can do it and will ended all these nicely...
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
im waiting for the day.
wangjing
14th december
republic poly
for you to tell me.
my family especially my father
ice-cream
xjy
bws
that you love me too.
be happy everyday
study hard