i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
Firstly, I proud of myself, our rp chinese student club done a good job... haha... The basketball match completed! haha...
Currently I was too tired... busy for this event, working as well as studying ..+ ut~~~ sometimes in mood about my personal things..haha.. I am satisfy with myself. in sence of .......don't know how to say, poor english !! haiz..:(
anyway, I am quite enjoying my life.... don't bother by others.. include him ..haha... I gave chance to be his friend.. whatever, i won't regreted.. and I will keep it up to do whatever i espected and must do well.!!! do myself proud!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Friday, May 26, 2006
2:30 PM
Wah... a bit excited , a bit sad! but more and more unbelieveable and shocked !!! after 15th of Feb.. he first time replied my messages at 1.32 am on 26th of May( 4 months after we broken off) ... last night , I called him when he was working .. he got explian in the message... Thank him for that!
Don't know how to decribe my feelings now! for a long time i espected to talk to him, now we got send some few message... but in the end, I am not very happy because this.. so i am thinking that if i did not call, did not keep send... it would be a totally different story ! Everything still in my dream.. never said out ! and I will enjoying it in that way! but now... no use...
Tomorrw is our RP chinese student club first basketball match!! firstly hopefully we will completed well. Secondly best wishes to li cheng yuan and my brother's team ! Lastly, I hope i got high confidences to chat with him whatever i am thinking in these few months.. and he won't rejected me...haiz..
well... no matter what , please remember a little bit more! in sence of happy, hope, love.. confidences.. and even our grade!!! .... include all ....
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Thursday, May 25, 2006
10:49 PM
Today I added his msn again, because I saw him face to face at E3 lift this lunch time! I was so excited... both of us were shocked by seeing each other in a short distance!!haiz...
Wah... finially I saw his girlfriend... finially know what she looks like... she looks very guai and cute... but different cute from me!! hehe ... now i am thinking , maybe he and his girlfriend both can be my friend... and she doesn't like someone who are proud and self-centre!!! haiz.. don't know!!
Just now on my way to home.. i tried my best to call him, but he did not say much things and then hang the phone... i kept send message to him... don't know what the exactly reason is !!! haha...
Actually I am sad now.... don't know how to cry ! and how let my tears flow from my eyes.. long time never cried... started from this semester I truely enjoying my life with my best friend.. terry, sok feng and beelay.. we got so much fun ... and always laugh ... much jokes among us... but don't know what happened to today ? I thinking too much about him!! haiz.. maybe because I am a sensitive person.., and basketball match!! now I am purposely wait for him reply my message... haiz..
Just can say, whatever happened... don't be sad , must be brave ! and LET IT GO EASY!!
haha...
We are in a different world.. and every singer things between us are different... we got fate to get together... that's enough, don't espect more.. ren yao xue hui zhi zu !!!
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i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
11:43 PM
Today I was so disappointed .. Firstly, I was quite happy to know that li cheng yuan still wear on the fozhu which i preyed for him last year when i was in china as well as the couple ring we both have it...But.. when he went to NUS with gao yan xin to book basketball court. I sent message to gao , asked her to check whether he surely wear on, however in that moment, he could not find it, and saying that it was lost at somewhere!!! haiz.. happy ----> upset..
Secondly, I lost a good chance to chat with him!! Because normally I would go booking court with gao yanxin... Today no chioce i went for ISC meeting...haiz.. Meeting quite ok , but the way of shan shan doing and thinking really shocked me ..she showed that he jealous to me! haiz.. sian!!
Coming thursday our chinese student club will held one meeting about our coming match, li chengyuan will attend, me ? of course will go ... so will it be a chance to make friend with him? haiz. still thinking and fully espected!!haha.. so fooish i am in some way !!haiz..
anyway, today i was fine and not very tired ... keep it up !!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Monday, May 22, 2006
11:30 PM
Maybe it is a good news from me.. i was selected to be one of International student Club MC... Tomorrow afternoon will held a meeting to rechose the new mc... I am a bit excited to be one of candidates, hopefully can get pass ...
I am happy to hear chee yuen to tell me this news , If i sucuss i will try hard to do anything and balance my life properly .. studying headache circuit + working + school event! earn much experiences and get fun... pratice myself as well!! of cource, i will more happier becuase of fulfilling..!!@@ good luck !!
Today bee lay and sok feng , we three went to E2 toliet.. just for photo taking.. so funny... we are three purposely went there, do nothing, only took few by using bee lay's new handphone--- nokia N70! looks good !!! haha...
well, I must plan my time effectively, coming Thursday and Friday got UT!! circuit analysis and PCB!! siao .. should be die...after PCB!!! haiz... good luck bar! only can say this !! hehe :(
I miss my father !!!! and mother !!!! and yonger brother ~~~!!! :)
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Well, today was very spaceful to pass. Woke up around 10am, after having breakfast i called back to china, chated with my brother and other family members... they all fine... that's good to hear that! Almost reach 12pm I went to Jurong east to watch" Davinci Code" , a bit disappointed.. I more prefer to read this book , if by contrast with wathing movie.. that's why I fall asleep while i am in theate...haiz.... waste time and money..
Pan ping sent message to me last night, asked me go his friend's birthday party, i would not like go there, not very familiar with all his friends... so just rejected him directly... another thing is i want to take a good rest at weekend... hehe ...
After dinner, I went for a walk with myself... walking slowly and deep in think.... very relaxed... enjoyed that feeling...
....... nothing special today...
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Thursday, May 18, 2006
2:09 PM
When i opened my eyes this morning, I started to in mood without any reason. From last night, i was a bit disappointed ... maybe i was thinking about him, maybe I was worring about my coming UT... maybe i was upset that who one besides me , give me support! And whenever i am in good or bad times, theire is no one accompany me to calabrate and lend the shoulder to try ....haiz... even i am keep saying that i don't wanna find someone to be my boyfriend..even currently got few guys like me... however no one can give those feelings! haiz...
Really miss him... like recalling those memories! why i like this ? some how i look down myself!!haiz... On tuesday i saw him at school library , that was a good chance to talk to him, because normally cheng yan ru all those people around him, besides me also got others, but tuesday only he is alone , me too... in that moment i almost to open to shout out his name ..ask him why never replied my message whether in qq or handphone!! haiz...
these few days, i eat so much things.. all can make me fatter!! but i still enjoying eat....
haiz.... cheer up ...
u understand me very much..but now u changed......
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Monday, May 15, 2006
11:18 PM
what i am busying for ? i don't know!!! maybe i just wanna pratice myself to fit into a true society..maybe i scared i will in mood by miss him again ... also don't knwo what happened to me, still sms him and left message to him by qq.. look down myself.. but really can not take it easy .. in some how, still expected him can reply ....haiz.. so stupid..
whenever i with my friend .. i will be a happy one, but when i alone on a bus or mrt .. or walking to home.. i will recall all those memories.. 100+ days past.. not very sad than before, but still unesay to forget... what i can say to myself.. haiz... always confort self be more happy and brave... no use!!
Around me, i know some guys like me,but no one can give those feelings, i told sok feng xin si le !!! haiz..
I give a excuse and chance to be his friend.. he is so cool just rejected me.... sad ... and in mood a bit!!!
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i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Friday, May 12, 2006
11:18 AM
Haiz..yesterday afternoon, i went to a meeting about our basketball match... dongyan went there with me together, she told me, li chengyuan lost his handphone on 7th of May, which means he did not received my message on time. so what i can see... i told her, even he lost his handphone on that special day, he found it, definitely he will see my message..anyway no use... and 7th of May passed...
haiz.. recently i quite tired.. after blood donation, follow by period coming... so sain... really can not make it... tired and less energy...
well, nothing more wanna say .. just be happy always .
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Sunday, May 07, 2006
10:11 PM
Last night after working in Waraku, around 11.55pm I sent a message to him..At that moment, i was so nervous, don't know how to describe my feelings , in my true heart, i reallly espected that he could replied my message, even "oh" or ok ... but in the end, till now 11pm on 7th of May... I never received any message from him... I confroted myself whole day, maybe he changed his handphone number, maybe he deleted my contact list, so he does not know who send that meassge.. but .... what i wrote, he should know is me.. no one else.. the message is about" hey ... how are you recently? always saw you at school canteen, but don't know how to talk to you freely ... currently school will got a basketball match, hopeful you can join in... now 5more minutes will reach 7th of May, i just wanna know whether "my puzzle" get ready to give me... ( which is my birthday present.. in that time, he has not finished yet..can not give me.. i told him when we broken off, must pass me on 7th of May...)... in the end of message, i wrote : maybe u forgot at all!!" haiz... how foolish i was...
But i told myself i won't regreted in the future.. at least i gave a try to be his friend, he rejected me... whatever happened... I won't be feel embrass... if i saw him next time...
well, today i am quite fine.. much better than what i imagine before... I purposely went to cut my hair.. because the song of liang yong qi <> haiz... maybe i think too much...maybe it is my personlities... haiz.. but all past!! I am not so sad today. which means i recovered.. and stand up already ...
come girl... keep it up... wang jing jia you !!!
haha.. yesterday i went to meeting.. so boring... and so china style... .. well, today almost pass, just feel free to let it pass...
and so happy , because there are some truely friends around me to give support and confidences...and my brother!!! good luck ...
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Saturday, May 06, 2006
1:00 AM
wah ... so busy recently.... working + studing circuit...+ meeting ....haiz... tired....but happy !!!
This afternoon, I saw him again when i was waiting for gao yan xin come to school canteen.. he wore a new t-shirt and nicklace.. I don't really think that suitable for him... the hair style and all those..
whatever we still be a stranger... he put his bag in front of him, in a moment, i saw him looking at me...maybe i think too much .. maybe i saw wrongly..but still happy to meet him again before 7th of May...
now tired.... my blogger timer got something wrong.. nowi s 1.30am on 6th of May, go and sleep .. otherwise tomorrow can die ...
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Thursday, May 04, 2006
11:53 PM
Feell so bad... i lost my glasses today when i was working at school library!!! I put it in front of me, but i never relized that i lost it until zhi zhen asked me, why today you did not wear on ...? i noticed that i lost my lovingly glasses!! haiz.. make me so carzy and upset!!
haiz... good luck . so tired i have to going off in 5mins..
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
12:48 AM
In some certains I really grate for baojun, he treats so well, and over the normal friendship... for example, he could directly told his girlfriend, he likes me, never bothered the relationship will be changed or whatever.... last night, when he back home, he has called me for 2 hours, and shared with so much, covered with my love, study, personalities... all of them from both of our heart... so that is called"zhiji" ...haiz...today after my working, i saw the message from him, he was waiting for me at outside somerset mrt.. he wanna accopanied with me , and send me back home... I was touched by him.. by whatever he did... so when we two sit down the bus, i told him please don't be so nice to me...!!! haiz...
At some moment, I am a little bit in mood... without any reasons... anyway, ooming saturday i will attend a meeting which held by chinese overseas students club... I will maka many friends as possible...and be more confident and brave , happy as well...
haiz... don't know why , i did a very foolish thing yesterday night, i took our neo-print by my handphone, sent to my laptop and save it... when today's lesson, i opened many times to see it .. and enjoying to recall!! haiz...
well, so tired.. tomorrow have to wake up earlier, to do the worksheet , and self-revision!! good luck, all the best..!!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
im waiting for the day.
wangjing
14th december
republic poly
for you to tell me.
my family especially my father
ice-cream
xjy
bws
that you love me too.
be happy everyday
study hard