i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am suffering horrible homesick now... i wanna call my father, to tell him, i really want to back to china during the chinese new year. i got 9 days holiday, if i escape two lessons. however i don't know whether father agree or not...hope so ....
after few days, lichengyuan will back to china for 20days. but we are not very nice to each other in these few days, maybe it is my fault, or maybe cause of both of us... he does not understand me well, not able to share everything with me, and always say some words and hurt me as well. i fell sad.. i confort myself, fall in love, it is a happiness thing, but also is a tired job... especailly for our heart....
hopefully he will contact me today, tomorrow and in china. i don't know what can say in this moment, just wanna deep in thinking and listen to music... sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
Monday, January 02, 2006
9:15 PM
I really scared... I am afraid of heart-broken... so special opening new year!
Today i went to Sentosa with xiaotong, only him and me , he told me , introduced me so many stories about singapore, and I can feel that he likes me ...but he did not tell me , and in my heart i still think about lichengyuan, i always opened my handphone to check , but li never called me in this whole day , only around 8pm he called me for asking when chinatown will be closed...how stupid question he asked... in that moment, my heart so pain ... heartbroken, i really wanna tell him, can we break off in this moment !!! but xiao lei told me that i should calm down and deep in thinking...but i am so disappointed ...and upset!!!
who understand me ??? so difficult i fall in love, everytime i started to love someone, in the end, i will heart-broken!!!
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
im waiting for the day.
wangjing
14th december
republic poly
for you to tell me.
my family especially my father
ice-cream
xjy
bws
that you love me too.
be happy everyday
study hard