for you will never be replaced;

Tuesday, September 27, 2005
3:16 PM

today after dinner, huanhuan, qiqi and me , sat in our canteen, we were chatting , suddently qiqi asked us that , what you want to be in the future ?? she looked me expectfully .. my answer is very simple , if it is possible , i want to try everything whatever i love . both of them were laughing, but in the deep of my heart , i really not sure where i should go or what i would like to be ... question is where is my future...???

even my father plan everything for me, include my future, maybe to help him to do business, but till now i have not learned anything about that , so how i can help him in the future.. nobody knows... today i helped cheeyuen to be one of actor, in that moment , i was thinking to be a news reporter should be nice thing .. or become a lawer also good, as i have a talented mouth ... hehe .. still don't know ..

in this coming thursday , nijie will go aus, she will take course, and working there, her family will move to there as soon as they can , i am not envy her , but i just think, as a adult , she still worries about her future life, how about young people such as me ??? have to think about as much earlier as possible ....

this year, when i go back to china, my father will pick me at the airport, i really want to share everything with him , especially my future, i think i am lost ... sigh ...

well , now i am a tuition for a chinese girl , focusing on her maths , and try to help her english, good thing is my father allow me to do that , it will be easy to me .. haha .. and i am enjoying to do , everyday fell so enriching ... and happy , also earn some a little bit pocket- money ... haha ...

good luck to myself , positive thinking ,.. happy everyday .. do well in everything first, it is a good beginning ..... of all.....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Saturday, September 17, 2005
2:05 AM

haha .... wah... i am happy as myself.
firstly, yesterday 15th.Sep.2005 is my first tuition day , i teach a Chinese girl , focusing on her maths and try to help her English . as she will take the PSLE in coming Noverber.time is limited. and not enough for a girl just came here for 1 month. anyway , she is cute , hard-working girl, and she only 4 month older than my brother. i do my best to teach and enjoy teaching . .. *_* even the payment is not high, i am happy to help weak people. like fuming said , things like jide ... haha ..

secondly, i collected back my part-time working approve lettle from school already. that means i can work outside. haha ..

thirdly, my summer writing has finished either in powerpoint or essay. my father is so happy to hear that i am writing story about my life , and give me confidences. haha...

whatever. i am happy and good luck , do well at everywhere and in anytime ... even now i am working in library , but i am writing my blogger.. haha

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Monday, September 12, 2005
12:30 PM

wah.. yeah... finially one week of school holiday finished, quite happy , in these few days, so many things happend to me ...

firstly, i enjoyed my work in my school library , and i think i did it well , but it is so horrible, as i am so lack of exercises, in tuesday, we had a duty to shift all the books, me and enyuan in the same group , we shifted and move up and down , my god ...!!! after that , i could not walk because of tirement . sigh.... therefore i want to find more jobs to do , then i called several engage to do the tuition teacher , to teach singaporean Chinese or Maths. hopefully i can do this job as soon as i can . it is easy and good earning .

secondly , 7th of Sep.is the celebration of me and chengyuan , get together for 4 months , we went to sentosa , simoso beach, we walked besides the band, we hand in hand , we were enjoying . in that moment, i cried without any reasons. don't know why ???!! hehe ...

thirdly , in these few days , everyday i went out for different purpose, one is to visit my techer - mr.chua , another is to meet liqing ,and bought a new shoes. quite happy .

forth, today i slept for 3 and half hours, haha ..so horrible, then i think i can wait lichengyuan back to home , and maybe we can coversion by msn .

haha .. then next week will coming soon , i must plan my time effectively , do well in my job and enjoy myself at everywhere and happy always. *_*

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Friday, September 02, 2005
1:44 PM

class over at 12.30pm on 2nd of sep 2005, the first semester in rp ended at the same time . i felt sad and excited.. don't know how to decribe my feelings in this moment ,

half year passed , i spent this half year in rp , i enjoyed and always are happy , even i was more quiet in my class, but ....

only my father and aunty and me know that , my father spent $6000 to help me study here, what i can return to my father , in the moment , i don't know , did i do well in my class? what are my weakness ?
?

hopeful i will do much well in the future, good luck , happy everyday .....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

so long time did not write my blog journal .. a little bit miss of it , now i am in class, total number of people in my class are 10 people, better than yesterday . -- 6 people .... haha ...
in these few days , nothing special, came school then went back to home , but last saturday i went out with rina and fuming to watch a megic show, it was so powerful and i was enjoyed it very much .

tomorrow is the last school day of 2005 semester 1, quite excited as i finished half of first year in rp, in this half year, happened to so much things, like i made so many friends in rp, either chinese or local people, of course i fall in love with him , and day after day , i like him . but not so much ... hehe ...*_* ... in these long period time, somedays i did well in my any module and class, few of days, i did not ,and lazy as today .

in rp, i tried so many new things in my life, some of them are first time to me , like join drama to act a performance, i was interested in that, and happy always. that is my big challenge in my life from born till now . another is i joined a few of CCA , all of are fun ...

i don't know what happened to me today , from morning till now, i always deep in thinking, acutually nothing in my mind , so how ?? don't know ....how ?

my first class will break up after semester 1, for me, i am so happy to do that, as i don't like my classmates, the girls are shifei , guys are mean and unreasonsible besides Sabir... haha ..

one good new is my first job is in rp library , $4.5 per hour, not bad , and my father also allow me to do , so hopefully i will enjoy it and earn knowledges and work experience , become a bright, intelligent and matured girl , haha ... grow up !!!!

ok , good luck to myself , and plan time effectively , enjoy my holiday at anywhere and happy always ....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel