i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
why ??? why this kind of things happend to me again , i confused and i am in big trouble , i don't want to hurt anyone in my life , but fuming .... fuming' s personalities very similar with chunhui , we treat each other as the best friends , but i know and i can fell that he likes me very much , howerver from last year till yesterday , he did not say anything . yesterday when he heard that li chen yuan is my boyfriend , he was unhappy and upset , i found from his appearance .. i tricked him , i am not li chenyuan 's girlfriend , in fact i am .... this moring , i received a message from fuming, he said that he wants to meet me tonight , and tell me his decision , but i replied " fuming , i really don't want lose a best friend in my life like you , i don't want to hurt you , but i really really can't tricked you , because i don' t like you , i just treat you as my long-life friend, please call me , we can chat with each other on the phone , then next time , when we meet , we will be more free and relax.. can ?" i know he destracted by me , whatever his study and life !!!
this kind of things happend to me angin , first time was happend on 2003 in chenggong's school , the " main actor" is me , yangjun , and chunhui !!" so long time not happend... just after one year happend to me again ........ is it my fault ? is it my problem ? is it my mistake ? is it because my personalities ? i always tell other people , i love make friends with guys , but how ????? what happend ???? ai ... i fell tired and upset .... in the end i will lose my best friend --- chunhui !! fuming !!! i ..................................
hopeful nothing bad will happend between me and fuming , we can still be a best friend ...... very expected ...
this few days , i extremely tierd and busy , from 2pm - 7pm i had to go to school for my drama production practise , after this , i went to two public speech, and went to job interview , so happy .... as yesterday i went to my first job trainning ......., finially i have my first job , i image that one day i save much money , then i can buy a gift to my father , that one will be very special , as i used my own money ......
in this moment , fuming sent me a message , he said that he will break out our relationship ..... i want to cry .... really i want to cry , suddently i lose my best friend in my life ...... how ????????????????????????????
now , i go out , i need deep in thinking , and preapre and replan my life , study ........everything about me !!!
unhappy...unset , i want tell chengyuan , can we break out ..??? it will fair to fuming and myself , as i don't like him , but i lose my best friend because of chengyuan ..........
i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel
im waiting for the day.
wangjing
14th december
republic poly
for you to tell me.
my family especially my father
ice-cream
xjy
bws
that you love me too.
be happy everyday
study hard