for you will never be replaced;

Monday, May 30, 2005
2:38 PM

wah... so many days has gone , i miss u ----my blogspot !!! hehe

this week , i am so busy , every day when i came back around 11pm, chengyuan accopanied me all the time , and went to everywhere i go . last friday , we sat in macdonal , and chatted , i asked him , in his opinion , what kind of person chudi, pangjian... has , from his view , i noticed a lot and deep in thought . anyway , i don't care them ..!!!

yesterday i went to a party , asia-australian mangement school ... they held a small party for the fisrt train people , those brother and sister graduated , they wore the dipomal clothers.. the feeling is nice. i also wear , and took some pictures , i will show those to my father and family , i like to imagine ....

wa!!!! only 4 more days i will go back to lanzhou , miss them........my family !!!! especially my youngest aunty and father , grandparents,,...everyone in my home ..

now whatever i do , just want to enrich my personal experiences and life , i am plan to find a part-time job to do , like fuming , eran money is not very improtant , earn how to commnicate and face different people is most improtant , like shiwei said " even we are the waiter in a hotel , the salary is low , we stand beside someone , u can hear what they are talking about and learn from them , how did they solve the problems , either in business or life... and u have a good chances to come across improtant people , we are not sure who they are ,maybe it will help us in the future or no ?

so when i come back from short holiday i will go with fuming .....

hopeful father will support me , understand me !!! haha .....hopeful i can do well and achieve my goal!!!

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Tuesday, May 24, 2005
5:19 AM

ai.... today is the first day after short holiday , but now i am stay at classroom , but i don't know how to solve today's problem by using the excel ... ai ...

i went to school library to borrow a book , howerer it is useless and i still comfused ... ai ... today i feel so tired and worry about my next problem solving UT . as i will miss one of them .

whatever , today's morning , i received a gift from chengyuan , he bought two toys to me , when i saw these , i was so happy in that moment . ^_^

ok , my class started, for more things , i write in the evening .. hehe .. c ...u jing .

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Monday, May 23, 2005
12:21 PM

yeah... i bought my air-ticket alreaday .. but i just go back china for 7days , but i am still happy and exciting . my whole family also feel that ... on saturaday i called back my mum , she said that she will accompany me to buy some new t-shirt for my brother wedding day . happy...

but i am a little bit worry about the school won't allowed me go back on 3rd of june, so how .... i will write my letter first , then give aunty to sign for me , and then summit to first centre office , hopeful will success...

yesterday i received a message from qiqi , she said that " jing , i don't know why you changed so many , when you talked to aunt , the feeling like you chat with your mum , i don't understand ..." when i saw this , i just kept quite , as in my heart , i am only my father and my mother's daughter , not others , and i changed in a good way .. at least i am happy ..

these two days , i am so tired , i went to orchard road ,attended enterprise marketing club , and went to temple to prey , lastly i went to chinatown with rina, so tired , want to sleep , and have a good brake tommor, so tml i won't go out any more , otherwise i will fail my vb understand text on wendesday ... hehe ...

good luck ...happy ..enjoy everything by myself .....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Friday, May 20, 2005
2:40 PM

i don't know .... i don't know so much things , such as why i used this title ...

these few days , i never came back home to have dinner , i was a little bit worry about aunty will tell my father , everyday i got cca and have to go library...so tired ... i want to relax and have a good brake at weekend ... tommor drama club will cut people , that means i can make decisions , whether i will go back china or no ... don't know ....

last fews days , chenyuan asked to act how to cry during the short time , i recalled a lot of things about them four and me , but in the end , i never cry out , as i felt so stupid i was in the past time , i was look myself down, so when i was thinking back , i just laughed ... and there are two guys asked me what the meaning of " wblforever...." , my answer is simple " habit and smile to them ..." actually i also not sure why i still use that , but the feeling has changed already , why i ....... don't know and understand......

whatever tommor is our first basic science ut , do my best and good luck... trust myself ....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Thursday, May 19, 2005
2:39 PM

today i went to drama cca , so fun and intresting , i like it very much . during the brake , i ask my two teacher , when we will know which role we will play in the prefromance..?? they said that in the coming friday , they will give us a annocement , to let us know who will play , that means i will know whether i can go back or no ..

now i am in a special troblem , i want to act in this production , because i can learn a lot of things from old students , and i will be happy everyday . but my english is not good , when i speak , someone always comfuse what i am talking about , so .... ai... today our main teacher texted how we act depend on his simple topic , like the relationship between husband and wife , or mum and son, most of them did very well , but when they turn to me , suddenly i don't know how to do , just copy some behaviors from others ...

one the way to home , i deep in thought , i told myself , i am so happy to join this club as my one of cca , can let me learn so much things which can not be find in our books ... the feeling is difficult to describe...

whatever happended on friday , i must be accepted happily and confidently , don't give up easily .. i trust and support myself ...

xixi...^_^

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Wednesday, May 18, 2005
3:00 PM

today is our last day be a christine students , as she did not teach us any more,. she will teach other class which a little bit lack of this enterprise skill. ai... from the first lesson till today , she always encourage me and give comments , i quite like her as my teacher ,and hopeful can be one of my friend ,. but luck .. i join her enterprise marketing club as one of my cca, so i will meet her again ,happy ...

yesterday i went to drama cca. quite fun and i like it , i am a person who is like to play and cheerful , but sometimes when i meet someone is the new face to me , then i will be quiet ,and shy ... so join drama , one of the reasons should be i want to practise and chanllge myself ..and more confidences . keep it up ..

when i went to drama cca, chengyuan wait for me at canteen , so touching and happy , xixi .

in july we will have a perfermance , so we will practise everyday in the june holiday , but i plan to go back to attend my brother wedding day , i miss my family members , they also , so now i am so upset , i don't what i chose , give up my role in drama ,i won't happy , same as my family ,if i won't go back they will angry with me and disappointment , so i will think about seriously .. and ask my director before i buy air-ticket..

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Monday, May 16, 2005
2:09 PM

from last monday till the day before today , everyday i came back around 10pm , even though chengyuan accompanied me , but i felt so tired , so this weekend i did not go that ALC camp and have a good brake at home . today i went to temple to prey , for my family ,my brother and myself . from tml i will go drama cca , i hope that i can do well and happy everyday
chengyuan promised that he will changed for me and be my bf as long as he can ..

i don't know my feeling , when he went to camp , i was a little bit miss him , and when he did not call me , i was angry with him , not sure myself .

just control myself and study harder ....

good luck ...xixixi ..

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Thursday, May 12, 2005
2:58 PM

In these few days , i am quite busy ......
i have a lot of meeting i have to go , and i also have to buy a sleeping bag for camping. from last sat. i and chenyuan went to wumin land ,and enjoied ourselves , and on the way to go back he told me.... i am so shock !! xixi ... from this monday , everywhere i go , he will go with me , and all of chinese freshmen and my classmates , they know it .

this night , i nearly to cry, i watched a short tv, that was about janpenese was killed by... for me , i am not very happy in these few days , even though i was busy everyday , but i think i let xjy down ... so sad ... i told chenyuan something about them four and me , but not in details , i don't know what happened to me , i am a little bit miss them .. and want to call them .. but i don't ....

now , only one thing i want to do ---deep in thinking......

anyway , good luck .. happy everyday ....s

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Monday, May 09, 2005
12:56 PM

Yesterday i went to wumingland with him , we rented a bike , and travelled for so long, for me i thought i am happy , he lied on my leg and sleep for a while , this is my first experience , at that moment , i felt nervous and unconfrontable , when we back , in the boat , he told me that he like me from first time to meet me at school library , oh..my god , in that moment i just laugh ....... it made him so embarrassing !!! xixi ...
At night , i asked him some questions about his past , he told me he had serval girlfriends before he came to singapore , he said is it unfair to me , my answer is quite simple , everyone had his own past , future , i don't care this , but when you meet next girl , pls let me know , i will leave u as soon as i can , that is my requirement , he replied to me : o .. i am a lucky boy , as i meet you , i will treat you very well ... " for myself i also had my own past , nobody understand and know well my life .. i changed a lot from the school began , i will keep it up!! now i will study harder and harder , and enjoy my life !!!
good luck and happy everyday !!!

jing , keep going !!! turst yourself ...

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Saturday, May 07, 2005
4:24 PM

A lot of things happened to me , firstly i joined 6 ccas , i perfer busy to free , so ... but i don't have much confident to spend time on individual one , just want to get fun.. secondly , i sighed-up the coming friday's camping , it will be my first time to experience this , a little bit excitement and happniess ... thirdly i conform my free , and on 7th of May , i will go wuming land with him , i hope that we will enjoy it ,and have a happy menmory ... when i ask qilina , she gave me some good suggestions and told me , now study-hard and happy everyday should be the most important aspects , others won't be .. last one , i went to rina's home, she got a lot of book either in chinese or in english , she lent me some , it will good for learning english ...
xixi , so tired ,..this week .. ok goodnight ..

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel

Wednesday, May 04, 2005
2:58 PM

o .... the short holidays finially ended ... from last friday till this monday , i was so bored to stay at home , especially stay with them three , so everyday i gave a excuse to myself for going out , either go to watch movie or go out to meet friend--rina . For me , i quite don't like holiday , especially this kind of holidays , huanhuan and qiqi . both of them get the middle-year exam in this week , so they revised everyday and anytime , i wanted to watch tv, but i also can not disturb them , therefore i just chatted with friends by QQ , i felt a little bit boring with that , and unhappy with it ...

but everything becomes ok , as the three days holiday ended , and i go back class again , happy .... by the way , i gave up biking club , as my father is not allow me to join in , and i really do not want to become more darker in the future .. this comming thursday and friday , our own cca opening house will take place at school , there are more choices , i will chose two of them to be my cca class ..

in these few days , i felt some strange feeling about me and .... , i am not sure it is ture or just a joke , anyway i can not distractby this , and concentrate on my study , my father will happy and satisfy with it if i do well ....

i say nothing but
i know you know how i feel